All returns to nothing

Blogger has decided to make a fool out of me again, it is now 8:51pm on the 30th of March… and Blogger isn’t allowing me to long into my account to post so here I am using Word to type out my post -_- Grr… Then my post will be late

Many things!! I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this but the whole night study issue is resolved. Going to testify both in Cell tomorrow and during Zone Gathering upon Cecelia’s request ^_^ I staying in HG2 and Zone 3A!!

At the start of the year I was pretty pissed because of the changes in the education structure (or whatever) there was not going to be a January intake for all JCs / CIs. So yea, I felt pretty sad that I would never get the chance to experience all that. But now just TODAY the 30th of March at noon, the minister of education declared that due to proposed future changes to the system (But this will not affect me or you… it will be in at very least 2 years time) that they are going to resume having the January intake!

I didn’t really pray about it, or that I could go for first three months but I was really hoping to get a chance to! And the chance re-appeared! Just another reason to cram doubly or triply hard for the prelims. Praise be to the Lord!! Who else can do such an impossible thing like challenge and change the ministry’s decision? Only God, I have proven my point… “There is nothing my God cannot do”

Doing worship this Friday, going to message the songs to… Jean or You Rong / Alfred / Charlie later on by tonight… I might send it really late so I hope they don’t freak out or rail on me or anything like that. What to choose? Hmm… Guess I’ll ask the Lord for inspiration!

Oh yes! And this morning, my first period was PE! And for all TAF members, running is in the morning before USSR. So I was not at my best that morning during PE, and I had to run my 2.4k test run. 12 whole rounds. *ulp* Being the usual unfit me, I chose to do a jog the whole way, but until the 6th to 7th round it was getting really unbearable… by the 10th round, I was ready to collapse. What did I do? Before the class and all round the field, I took off my glasses, wiped my face and continued jogging step by step, singing praises and praying! Now, some people might think I was nuts whispering gibberish (tongues) and panting all the way but God sustained my all the way through and I managed to finish my 12 rounds. Even with a dismal timing of 15mins and 13 seconds (My passing time is 13 min 50 sec I think… not sure) at least I finished! Some people who were also weak physically like me did not finish the whole thing and gave up halfway… but I finished it!

Just realized I can’t spell tongues, I always spelt it as tounges…thanks to Word’s auto spell check, I have learnt from my mistake… Everyone makes mistakes sometime or another. Time to rant about... 4E again! The spars continue daily… but why use our classroom?? I’m thinking of charging admission fees for all who enter as spectators from tomorrow onwards… the 4E class fund looks horribly low and in dangerous levels, if they want to watch a show… might as well make them pay for it. But this would be considered “ill-gotten” goods… I assume.

Got into a spat with some of my friends, they just can’t understand that it is really tough to please everyone. To that person, their idea will always sound the best and most logical even though all bystanders can see loopholes big enough to let elephants through. Such a simple thing, what a drastic ending. Did it have to close this way; I hope this does not leave a dent on our friendship.

Found the full translated lyrics for “Life is Like a Boat” (translations below romanji) Its is really REALLY long so hope you don’t mind ^_^

Life is Like a Boat – Rie Fu

Nobody knows who I really am;
I've never felt this empty before.
And if I ever need someone to come along,
who’s gonna comfort me and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
the waves keep on coming and we can't escape
but if we ever get lost on our way
the waves will guide you through another day

Tooku de iki o shiteru [I've been going far away]
toumei ni natta mitai [And I seem to have become invisible.]
Kurayami ni omoi dakedo [My feelings head towards darkness, but]
mekakushi sareteta dake [It is only a mask.]

Inori wo sasagete [So offer a prayer]
atarashii hi wo matsu [As you wait for a new day.]
Azayaka ni hikaru umi [Up until the brilliant blue sea]
sono hate made [Dries up.]

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you will follow me and keep me strong

Hito no kokoro wa utsuri yuku [People's hearts are disappearing]
nukedashitaku naru [Their hearts are slipping away]
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki [But each new phase of the moon still]
de mune wo sureteku [Shines upon my heart.]

And every time I see your face
The oceans lead out to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars
And soon I can't see the shore

Oh, I can't see the shore...
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I feel this way toward you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you and keep you strong

Tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku [I am still continuing my journey]
odayaka na hi mo [Even on the calm days.]
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki [Each new phase of the moon still]
de mune wo terashidasu [Shines upon my heart.]

Inori wo sasagete [So offer a prayer]
atarashii hi wo matsu [As you wait for a new day.]
Azayaka ni hikaru umi [Up until the brilliant blue sea]
sono hate made [Dries up.]

And everytime I see your face
The oceans lead out to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars
And soon I can't see the shore

Unmei no fune wo kogi [We are riding the boat of fate]
nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to [From now on, the waves head for the moon.]
Watashi-tachi wo sou kedo [Exactly like us, but]
sore mo suteki na tabi ne [That is a wonderful journey as well...]
Dore mo suteki na tabi ne... [Any journey is a wonderful one...]

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Woah, that’s really long isn’t it? ^_^ But it’s a nice song… sounds a little sad though, but at least is it not depressing and suicidal like “Komm Süsser Tod”… a song I like but… Id post the lyrics some other time… that song is REALLY depressing and has suicidal messages… so hopeless… makes you feel… hopeless, and lets not forget that the title “Komm Süsser Tod” is not in English, translated it reads “Come Sweet Death” O.o Don’t ask me, Evangelion is a complicated series… That song if from the End of Evangelion OVA for your info… since I’m so free for comparison’s sake I’ll just post the lyrics for “Komm Süsser Tod” here now… “enjoy” *shudder*

Komm Süsser Tod, Come Sweet Death – End of Evangelion

I know, I know I've let you down
I've been a fool to myself
I thought I could
live for no one else

But now through all the hurt and pain
Its time for me to respect
the ones you love
mean more than anything

So with sadness in my heart
I feel the best thing I could do
is end it all
and leave forever

whats done is done, it feels so bad
what once was happy now is sad
I'll never love again
my world is ending

I wish that I could turn back time
cos now the guilt is all mine
cant live without the trust from the ones you love.
I know we can't forget the past
you cant forget love and pride
because of that its killing me inside

It all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down,
it all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down.

In my heart of hearts,
I know that I can never love again
I've lost everything
everything
that matters to me,
matter in this world

I wish that I could turn back time
cos now all the guilt is mine
cant live without
the trust from those you love
I know we can't forget the past
you can't forget love and pride
because of that, its killing me inside

It all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
it all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down
It all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
it all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down…

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Chilling isn’t it? But you have to listen to it yourself to understand… its rather nice if you disregard the disturbing message. And for those who have watched EOE (End of Evangelion) you’d have to agree that this song fits the scene very well.

That’s all… phew. This post is very long hahaz, can’t be bothered to count even with word-checker on Word. Bb!

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[Ps. I changed the post date when posting so yea... ^_^]