Absolutely merserised with the song "You Said"... Just picked it up on Sunday... Oh my, the words "You Said" are so powerful like as if it is posing a challenge "I said it, are you willing to believe it?" And I dare say I do, the nations eh? Sounds like fun, I'll take it!
School is lightening up alot now that the D&T crisis is HALF over and I have an idea how to do my chosen project. But then again, the scales have to balance up.. sigh... I am in Christian Character for CET Again!! This is like the 3rd of 4th time round! Ps Rachel said I failed e last time.. but Im sure I didnt T_T I dont want to be in a class with no one for company but kids and adults with faces that look as if they were cut from coarse granite. I want to go where everyone else is... the herd mentality? Nah, I just need company... everyone needs friends, no matter how much of a loner he/she is.
There was supposed to be this really cool offer that would let me make a quick buck but it fell through and was postponed till later notice. (Argh, there goes my Valentine's Day budget.. oops.. did i say something? O.o) About 80% of the best things in my life (things that are too good to be true) either fail (a small minority Thank God) or have to be waited for (God's favourite way of doing things ^_^) and only 20% actually goes as planned perfectly. Not complaining but just wondering why. Well He has His plans and His thoughts and ways are higher than our thoughts and ways, so no complaints here ^_^
Miss Shim didnt come today, and neither was Miss Kodi free to take the class... so we didnt get out handbook, nor did we get to hand in our article =_= aiya, quite a uneventful day aside from the Council Investiture (wronf spelling) and a ton of the old people came back from Mashrufah to Edwin Neo (Who took our class for Relief during Eng when Miss Kodi was not around FYI) Hmm and our Geog test got postponed (not that im not ready hahaz ok cannot be proud...)
Sometimes, I just stand there and look up at the sky and wonder. Here I am, doing the best I can but one way or another I begin to become the me in school and the me outside again, I dont want that to happen. I want to reach out and save my school, I really do but I have no idea what to do, so I seek... and I'll keep seeking till I find what I want.
Today, I was super bored during my "free" period so I began to compare... it was close, REAL close but I judged based on all different aspects and all and it came out a stalemate.. almost equal.. Argh.. aint solving anyhing X_X Ive been thinking, 4 years, so much has happened, so much can happen, will things still be the same then? How will we change? How will this play out? Such a cruel joke life has played... and then there is always the wild card, making things worse then ever... the ever-present wild card...
Still listening to "You Said" I am absolutely captured by that song.. im gonna post e lyrics here!
You Said - Hillsongs
You said,
Ask and you will recieve
What ever you need.
You said,
Pray and I'll hear from Heaven
And I'll heal your Land.
You Said ,
Your Glory will fill the Earth
Like Water the Seas.
You Said,
Lift up Your Eyes
The Harvest is Here The Kingdom is Near.
- Chorus -
You Said
Ask and I'll give the Nations to You
O' Lord, That's the Cry of my Heart
Distant Shores and the Islands
Will See Your Light
As it Rises on Us
You Said
O' Lord I ask for the nations
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Awesome ain't it? If you want e mp3, just chat me up on MSN and I'll send it to you without delay! Listening to another song... An Jing.. hahaz, I know i know, I VERY RARELY listen to Chinese songs... but it got me thinking about the events since the 23rd of Dec up till now. Should I? I really don't want to... then there's the wild card, along with other up and rising candidates... I just dont want to think about it, at least not for now.
An item that represents you eh? That is the thing we were asked to bring tommrrow for CME. An object or item that represents ourself with exception of banned items in the school (obviously the teachers knew that some pupils would take advantage of this chance) What to bring? I really don't know, at first I thought about bringing a bottle of water or something similar. I just found a really cool meaning for that... but it was deemed too simple.. so now Im thinking again... think think think Tuesday has always been a cool day cos of CME ^_^ the only 100% non stressful lesson in the ENTIRE week
Well it's kinda late.. ive been writing this for like HOURS hahaz, loggin off! Cya round!
PS. sorry if bulk of this is irrelevant to you people from school and all...
Quote of e Post:
Im Free!!! (New fav song... Free by Hillsongs too haha)
Monday, January 31, 2005
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Dreaming is Meaningless
It's been like 3 days ouch and SO much has happened... Lest go in choronological order shall we?
Lets start from the 27th! Thursday! D&T day X_X Yea.. It got rejected AGAIN! But Im getting close now ^_^ Soon .. more editing and he HAS To accept it~! I'll be doing that yes. And then the highlight of the day... Finally! After 2 LONG MONTHS! The 2004 Church Camp Commitee finalyl met up for their little meetign / dinner hahaz. But Alvin-kun was not there and neither was Xin Yi-Sama who was sick that day .. oh well, some other time perhaps? Ps Rachel ordered like SO MANY dishes! There was Sweet Sour Chicken, KangKong, Butter Prawns, Scallop and Veg, Hotplate Tofu and Some nice fried appetizer thing that is heavenly with Mayo.. Wait.. ALL Deepfried things are awesome with Mayo XD Anna-sama was like super hyper all the way while Aaron-kun was still up to his usual semi-serious semi-joking style.. Paster Rachel? She was just... happy like, craking jokes here and there talking alot ^_^ Wahaz... first time I knew about Cedar uniform, it does not look flattering.. really, not until I saw the Uniform actually worn by someone, Whowz... it really makes a difference you know? Anyhow, sidetracking... After that we went for Prayer Meeting, the second time recently last tiem was when Ps Rachel was leading and called us to go support her... hahaz... sidetrack again... ok lar so it was quite cool... before the meeting chatted abut with Anna-sama, learnt tons of cool things about Cedar, I envy them ALOT, compared to my school.. everytime I think about my school I want to cry...
WHY ARE WE SO PATHETIC?? There is no unity, spirit or anything of that sort! It is all a matter of choice, how you want to live your life. You want to be pathatic and part of the majority of losers and save your face, go ahead, but if you want things to change - Action ahs to be taken. Im going to be a trendsetter, a history maker, why dont you?
Dont know why, I just got this phrase stuck in my head -> "What Goes Around Comes Around, What Goes Up Must Come Down" from dunno wat song ive been hearing an awful lot on radio recently. But I like it alot, dont know why... guess it makes sence bah?
Now on to Friday! ^_^ Oh my Friday was such a cool day! School was like SO SMOOTH! Nothing cropped up and everything was just... perfect! After school met up with Shan An, Kim Tian, Jin Rong and Andy. Woah! When I heard that Andy and Shan An dyed their hair I didnt think too much of it UNTIL I saw Shan An's Hair... OMG it was ALL BRIGHT ORANGE! Kurosaki Ichigo would have been proud XD (If you want to know, just search for Bleach! the anime or manga OR kurosaki Ichigo.. and tyou'll see what i mean XD) Went to AMK to eat lunch.. mm... Seoul Garden HAhaz... Just ate and talked, there was this bunch of really silly boys on the table next to ours, they were upper sec somemore lor from Presbyterian High (did I get that school right O.O), compaing that "Oh look! My fire is bigger then yours!" or "The food i cooked is better then yours!" Silly stuff X_X so noisy... And we were like talking how idiotic they were behaving (like some suger-high hyperactive rodents) and I think they heard but aiya, they also wont dare to do anything... Cos we outnumber them (Although I dont think Jin Rong looks like she will try to fight... Neither will I) because Shan An and Andy look really fierce with ther new hairdo and cos they are all skinny and kind of short XD at the end of the meal, we like took sauce and all sorts of things and put it in the soup to play Zhong Ji Mi Ma.. wahaz... being a good analyst saved me tons of times, making the next person take my rap (Poor Jin Rong.. that stuff was VILE! Think soup, Chili Sauce, Ketchup, Preserved Veg, Lemonade and some other stuff mixed into a gooey reddish bowl XD)
Then we went to check out this new place where they sold like anime and manga stuff and also games and such (All Legit though)... they had a 10% discount until the end of this week.. but I no cash sia... Went back to Shan An's house and slacked abit until about 6:40 rushed off to take bus to GEC and help out set up things for e RR Enrolment Service the next day.. It was like so fun cos we had to build a mountain ^_^ Scaffolding and Cardboard, brown paper (with spray paint! Woot!), tons of crushed newspaper (More fun!) and Tape, scotch tape, masking tape, stapler gun,... the works Whahas, had lots of fun and went back only at like 12.. Rong Sheng drove us (Me, Dilys and Jonathan) home in Derrick's Car (Derrick is like Sandra;'s BF! How cool ^_^) he was a great driver, no stress or worries, but he's just a little slow sia hahaz, went home and SLEPT!! zZzZzZ
Saturday!! Woke up nice and early to fix up my unifrom for Enrolment Service, then did homework... Chem is fun :D Then went to GEC to do the rest of the things we didnt manage to do the previous night, fix a few flaws here and there and practised for the Opening Skit... it was so fun! We would like walk in from the two front doors and walk to our spots and begin dancing like the Axe Gang dance (From Kung fu Hustle lolx... but instead of Axes we had sticks with the RR amblem on it) Hahaz, so fun but I messed up my timing on the actual thing!! Argh!! Then sercie as per usual, Uriah got Ranger of the Year again! Two Years Running! Power! Cleared up and went home... tired and aching all over from squeezing in my Uniform for hours hahaz.. I need a new uniform ASAP!
Fast forward a boring night... Woke up early this morning... slacking now... Still have some HWK to do but I dont know how we are supposed to do it cos It is group work and some peopel just cant be online or around.. sigh... we'll see how things work out. Ooh Listening to Come What May, great song hahaz... Hmm... CET starts today! ^_^ And Ive got a little offer next week.. ill check it out though, worth a shot ^_^ Well I tihnk ill go prepare k? Bye Bye!
Quote of the Day:
I believe... He was born with the natural ability to achieve Ban Kai!
Lets start from the 27th! Thursday! D&T day X_X Yea.. It got rejected AGAIN! But Im getting close now ^_^ Soon .. more editing and he HAS To accept it~! I'll be doing that yes. And then the highlight of the day... Finally! After 2 LONG MONTHS! The 2004 Church Camp Commitee finalyl met up for their little meetign / dinner hahaz. But Alvin-kun was not there and neither was Xin Yi-Sama who was sick that day .. oh well, some other time perhaps? Ps Rachel ordered like SO MANY dishes! There was Sweet Sour Chicken, KangKong, Butter Prawns, Scallop and Veg, Hotplate Tofu and Some nice fried appetizer thing that is heavenly with Mayo.. Wait.. ALL Deepfried things are awesome with Mayo XD Anna-sama was like super hyper all the way while Aaron-kun was still up to his usual semi-serious semi-joking style.. Paster Rachel? She was just... happy like, craking jokes here and there talking alot ^_^ Wahaz... first time I knew about Cedar uniform, it does not look flattering.. really, not until I saw the Uniform actually worn by someone, Whowz... it really makes a difference you know? Anyhow, sidetracking... After that we went for Prayer Meeting, the second time recently last tiem was when Ps Rachel was leading and called us to go support her... hahaz... sidetrack again... ok lar so it was quite cool... before the meeting chatted abut with Anna-sama, learnt tons of cool things about Cedar, I envy them ALOT, compared to my school.. everytime I think about my school I want to cry...
WHY ARE WE SO PATHETIC?? There is no unity, spirit or anything of that sort! It is all a matter of choice, how you want to live your life. You want to be pathatic and part of the majority of losers and save your face, go ahead, but if you want things to change - Action ahs to be taken. Im going to be a trendsetter, a history maker, why dont you?
Dont know why, I just got this phrase stuck in my head -> "What Goes Around Comes Around, What Goes Up Must Come Down" from dunno wat song ive been hearing an awful lot on radio recently. But I like it alot, dont know why... guess it makes sence bah?
Now on to Friday! ^_^ Oh my Friday was such a cool day! School was like SO SMOOTH! Nothing cropped up and everything was just... perfect! After school met up with Shan An, Kim Tian, Jin Rong and Andy. Woah! When I heard that Andy and Shan An dyed their hair I didnt think too much of it UNTIL I saw Shan An's Hair... OMG it was ALL BRIGHT ORANGE! Kurosaki Ichigo would have been proud XD (If you want to know, just search for Bleach! the anime or manga OR kurosaki Ichigo.. and tyou'll see what i mean XD) Went to AMK to eat lunch.. mm... Seoul Garden HAhaz... Just ate and talked, there was this bunch of really silly boys on the table next to ours, they were upper sec somemore lor from Presbyterian High (did I get that school right O.O), compaing that "Oh look! My fire is bigger then yours!" or "The food i cooked is better then yours!" Silly stuff X_X so noisy... And we were like talking how idiotic they were behaving (like some suger-high hyperactive rodents) and I think they heard but aiya, they also wont dare to do anything... Cos we outnumber them (Although I dont think Jin Rong looks like she will try to fight... Neither will I) because Shan An and Andy look really fierce with ther new hairdo and cos they are all skinny and kind of short XD at the end of the meal, we like took sauce and all sorts of things and put it in the soup to play Zhong Ji Mi Ma.. wahaz... being a good analyst saved me tons of times, making the next person take my rap (Poor Jin Rong.. that stuff was VILE! Think soup, Chili Sauce, Ketchup, Preserved Veg, Lemonade and some other stuff mixed into a gooey reddish bowl XD)
Then we went to check out this new place where they sold like anime and manga stuff and also games and such (All Legit though)... they had a 10% discount until the end of this week.. but I no cash sia... Went back to Shan An's house and slacked abit until about 6:40 rushed off to take bus to GEC and help out set up things for e RR Enrolment Service the next day.. It was like so fun cos we had to build a mountain ^_^ Scaffolding and Cardboard, brown paper (with spray paint! Woot!), tons of crushed newspaper (More fun!) and Tape, scotch tape, masking tape, stapler gun,... the works Whahas, had lots of fun and went back only at like 12.. Rong Sheng drove us (Me, Dilys and Jonathan) home in Derrick's Car (Derrick is like Sandra;'s BF! How cool ^_^) he was a great driver, no stress or worries, but he's just a little slow sia hahaz, went home and SLEPT!! zZzZzZ
Saturday!! Woke up nice and early to fix up my unifrom for Enrolment Service, then did homework... Chem is fun :D Then went to GEC to do the rest of the things we didnt manage to do the previous night, fix a few flaws here and there and practised for the Opening Skit... it was so fun! We would like walk in from the two front doors and walk to our spots and begin dancing like the Axe Gang dance (From Kung fu Hustle lolx... but instead of Axes we had sticks with the RR amblem on it) Hahaz, so fun but I messed up my timing on the actual thing!! Argh!! Then sercie as per usual, Uriah got Ranger of the Year again! Two Years Running! Power! Cleared up and went home... tired and aching all over from squeezing in my Uniform for hours hahaz.. I need a new uniform ASAP!
Fast forward a boring night... Woke up early this morning... slacking now... Still have some HWK to do but I dont know how we are supposed to do it cos It is group work and some peopel just cant be online or around.. sigh... we'll see how things work out. Ooh Listening to Come What May, great song hahaz... Hmm... CET starts today! ^_^ And Ive got a little offer next week.. ill check it out though, worth a shot ^_^ Well I tihnk ill go prepare k? Bye Bye!
Quote of the Day:
I believe... He was born with the natural ability to achieve Ban Kai!
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Beginning Of The Death Of Tommrrow
Yup, and that is the title of Bleach! Book 15 ^_^ Sounds a tad disturbing though... and the fold out page inside seems to promote drug taking or something.. ->"Things to take yo to high, Is not only wings" Wierd... but Bleach! has always been a wierd series splicing humor and action all together nicely.
It is Wednesday night again, and tommrrow is THURSDAY. Im beginning to Loathe Thursdays because of the existance of D&T. I might be becoming desperate enough to cram for chinese and that THAT mark instead of D&T in the Os cos my D&T is SO NOT FITTING ME!! Give me one chance to redo something and I would... No! I wouldnt choose not to take D&T! I'd choose to pass my year in 3I and go on to 4I and have already left by now!! Enough about that trash. I need to hand in my 8 problem situations tommrrow and 1 page of problem analysis... I have no idea how to do any of that.
It seems that the rule of Equivalent Trade has been broken! I dont know how but it just has... recently. In alchemy they say that the rules can only be bent by the use of the "Philosophers Stone". Well, I guess in life, God is my Philosopher's Stone, and more. He can bend everything XD Now I dont know how He is supposed to help but I just know He can. Funny ain't it, Ive just gone back again like a spring... from big bad confused mood yesterday into semi-perky happy today. I wonder... is semi pronounced "sam-eye" or "sam-ye" I prefer to use "sam-eye" If you dont get it... learn how to read... go for phonics class or something XD
Yikes.. I did it again. Blogged halfway went off to do something else and wasted 1 - 2 hours writing nothing hahaz. it is now 9:15pm, I began at 8:07pm lolx. Oops, I mean it is now 10:09pm and I am SUPER AGITATED!!! I cant do my D&T and I cant think of any ideas whatsoever. Plus instead of just my 8 problem situations I lso need to throw in a problem analysis. Time is runing short, I dont care what I'll have to do to finish it up I HAVE TO!!!
All I cant think of now is how to finish up folio assignment and let it burn until next week when we need to hand in more crap. Forgive my language from now on.. Im in a mood so bad anyone who crosses me now will not be very happy. Ok I shall not waste my time being on this page when im too over come by frustration to blog...
Quote:
None! Im too pissed to find one :P
It is Wednesday night again, and tommrrow is THURSDAY. Im beginning to Loathe Thursdays because of the existance of D&T. I might be becoming desperate enough to cram for chinese and that THAT mark instead of D&T in the Os cos my D&T is SO NOT FITTING ME!! Give me one chance to redo something and I would... No! I wouldnt choose not to take D&T! I'd choose to pass my year in 3I and go on to 4I and have already left by now!! Enough about that trash. I need to hand in my 8 problem situations tommrrow and 1 page of problem analysis... I have no idea how to do any of that.
It seems that the rule of Equivalent Trade has been broken! I dont know how but it just has... recently. In alchemy they say that the rules can only be bent by the use of the "Philosophers Stone". Well, I guess in life, God is my Philosopher's Stone, and more. He can bend everything XD Now I dont know how He is supposed to help but I just know He can. Funny ain't it, Ive just gone back again like a spring... from big bad confused mood yesterday into semi-perky happy today. I wonder... is semi pronounced "sam-eye" or "sam-ye" I prefer to use "sam-eye" If you dont get it... learn how to read... go for phonics class or something XD
Yikes.. I did it again. Blogged halfway went off to do something else and wasted 1 - 2 hours writing nothing hahaz. it is now 9:15pm, I began at 8:07pm lolx. Oops, I mean it is now 10:09pm and I am SUPER AGITATED!!! I cant do my D&T and I cant think of any ideas whatsoever. Plus instead of just my 8 problem situations I lso need to throw in a problem analysis. Time is runing short, I dont care what I'll have to do to finish it up I HAVE TO!!!
All I cant think of now is how to finish up folio assignment and let it burn until next week when we need to hand in more crap. Forgive my language from now on.. Im in a mood so bad anyone who crosses me now will not be very happy. Ok I shall not waste my time being on this page when im too over come by frustration to blog...
Quote:
None! Im too pissed to find one :P
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Break-Away
Heyz... feel very sian and lethargic today. First began with maths, yesterday I asked our dear piece of turd when was the test he said next week when it was in fact today!! Didnt study for it, most likely im not going to fail cos most of it was quite basic stuff ^_^ Continued my little quest for english today, with the help of monk and eugene interviewed a few teachers for the article thing. We are writing it tommrrow, cant wait ^_^
D & T again on Thursday!! After getting my 8 ideas torn up I need to find 8 new ideas.. pronto! And also do an Analysis thing... one page. But there's more to thursday than that! Thursday is finally the Camp Comm. 2004 meeting! On the 27th!! Approx two months since the camp... meeting up again ^_^ So excited and happy! Dont know why also... argh.. hope Anna does not pester me about her X'mas present again.. even though I doubt she is that petty... as in the previous times were just jesting... But to put it properly "I cant explain how good it feels to see you here again". On Thursday no less, on Rachel's orders so we can all go Prayer Meeting after that!! Whee.. seeing everyone again! I missed you... i mean all of you! Mm Hmm.. I can get my mind of school and all for just one period of time... One day in the house of God is better then a thousand days in the world, how true! ^_^
School is catchign up again, NCC tommrrow after school. I'll most likely be going but with no uniform and no explaination, I'll probably get railed at again.. Owch but I need that ONE or (Very unlikely) TWO points cut from my O level scores. I dont think I'll ever fufill my role as a photographer in NCC, after all, there is no hint of the "training course" I've heard about and time is running low as the middle of the year draws nearer still... was it just a ploy to draw me back just for attendence? I really dont know...
Today at CME, Miss Shim was talking about being a balanced person and she asked the class who there was a Christian... I saw this awesome chance and put up my hand, to my surprise someone else.. very unlikely person also did the same! The next thing disturbed me the most was that this person next to him began asking him questions and that guy just brushed him off with something like "Our teachings are sacred and private to Christians only" I wanted to jump up and shout at him not only for that but also cos he normally is no shining light!! I mean like OUR religion is not SACRED or PRIVATE! Then MAIN IMPORTANT thing is to SHARE IT WITH OTHERS! Dammnit! How selfish and daft can he get?! Now Im not even sure if he was a real Christian or not.. but that phrase just kicked me in the face!! Argh!!
Breaking away, falling apart. Dont know what keeps me together... I just want to talk to someone. Tell them all my fears and dreams and worries.. someone who will answer back.. someone I can see, someone I know fully well with all the physical evidence in the world exists. I dont know what stress is nor what it feels like but I know im lacking it. I've heard stress motivates us to work hard and all but... what is stress?? Am I stressed? By what??
I just feel like taking many bricks (or any heavy object) and hurling them outwards in a random direction or holding something moderately heavy and swinging it, just swing and trash it around until my arm aches and hurts so bad I cant throw/swing anymore then I'll scream, and I'll shout until I go hoarse and collapse in a sweaty tired heap. I want to stop time, to just lie back and sleep, and rest, close my eyes and forget all the things ive got to do, with no strings attached for just maybe 5 minutes. Thats all i ask, maybe five minutes, lose my sane mind, stop thinking about things and just live. Just look at the animals, they are fully content with a full belly and a warm nest, sometimes I feel my intellect is more of a burden then a gift...
Ha, no point talking about all this rubbish. If you get it, then you do, good for you, if you dont then you'll see ive got some issues up there *taps head* Aiya, im using no names here... logging off now... see you whoever is reading around soon k?
Quote of the Post:
Things Take You To High,
Is Not Only Wings
Bleach! 2125138
D & T again on Thursday!! After getting my 8 ideas torn up I need to find 8 new ideas.. pronto! And also do an Analysis thing... one page. But there's more to thursday than that! Thursday is finally the Camp Comm. 2004 meeting! On the 27th!! Approx two months since the camp... meeting up again ^_^ So excited and happy! Dont know why also... argh.. hope Anna does not pester me about her X'mas present again.. even though I doubt she is that petty... as in the previous times were just jesting... But to put it properly "I cant explain how good it feels to see you here again". On Thursday no less, on Rachel's orders so we can all go Prayer Meeting after that!! Whee.. seeing everyone again! I missed you... i mean all of you! Mm Hmm.. I can get my mind of school and all for just one period of time... One day in the house of God is better then a thousand days in the world, how true! ^_^
School is catchign up again, NCC tommrrow after school. I'll most likely be going but with no uniform and no explaination, I'll probably get railed at again.. Owch but I need that ONE or (Very unlikely) TWO points cut from my O level scores. I dont think I'll ever fufill my role as a photographer in NCC, after all, there is no hint of the "training course" I've heard about and time is running low as the middle of the year draws nearer still... was it just a ploy to draw me back just for attendence? I really dont know...
Today at CME, Miss Shim was talking about being a balanced person and she asked the class who there was a Christian... I saw this awesome chance and put up my hand, to my surprise someone else.. very unlikely person also did the same! The next thing disturbed me the most was that this person next to him began asking him questions and that guy just brushed him off with something like "Our teachings are sacred and private to Christians only" I wanted to jump up and shout at him not only for that but also cos he normally is no shining light!! I mean like OUR religion is not SACRED or PRIVATE! Then MAIN IMPORTANT thing is to SHARE IT WITH OTHERS! Dammnit! How selfish and daft can he get?! Now Im not even sure if he was a real Christian or not.. but that phrase just kicked me in the face!! Argh!!
Breaking away, falling apart. Dont know what keeps me together... I just want to talk to someone. Tell them all my fears and dreams and worries.. someone who will answer back.. someone I can see, someone I know fully well with all the physical evidence in the world exists. I dont know what stress is nor what it feels like but I know im lacking it. I've heard stress motivates us to work hard and all but... what is stress?? Am I stressed? By what??
I just feel like taking many bricks (or any heavy object) and hurling them outwards in a random direction or holding something moderately heavy and swinging it, just swing and trash it around until my arm aches and hurts so bad I cant throw/swing anymore then I'll scream, and I'll shout until I go hoarse and collapse in a sweaty tired heap. I want to stop time, to just lie back and sleep, and rest, close my eyes and forget all the things ive got to do, with no strings attached for just maybe 5 minutes. Thats all i ask, maybe five minutes, lose my sane mind, stop thinking about things and just live. Just look at the animals, they are fully content with a full belly and a warm nest, sometimes I feel my intellect is more of a burden then a gift...
Ha, no point talking about all this rubbish. If you get it, then you do, good for you, if you dont then you'll see ive got some issues up there *taps head* Aiya, im using no names here... logging off now... see you whoever is reading around soon k?
Quote of the Post:
Things Take You To High,
Is Not Only Wings
Bleach! 2125138
Monday, January 24, 2005
Im Back!
Wahaz! Im back! Much more relaxed but surely much more tensed! There was a small test today and there will be a big test tommrrow. Homework to be done and all, those 3 days were more of a time waster and tension builder then a stress reliever for me. But I had tons of fun! Below is a small breakdown of my trip.. and no i didnt buy any presents back (although I wish I had... I really should have!!!) Im so sorry!
First day, friday! Nice public holiday, woke up at like 8am or so and continued packing cos lazy me left my packing to the last minute hahaz, then waited around.. nothing interesting happened until 10:40am or so when our dear taxi ride arrived! I used my new bag as carry on ^_^ (Oh yea for those who didnt know I got a new bag! It was like what ive wanted just before school re-opened!!) Uneventful ride to the airport, checked in... and strolled about the terminal... quite a waste of time really, bought the new 8 days and drank an expensive bottle of mineral water (Argh.. airport stuff will always be expensive) Skip Skip Skip to boarding... ^_^ the SIA planes are really cool! I absolutely loved Kris-Flyer In-Flight entertainment system... *drool*
Uneventful flight.. abit of turbulence here and there... the fact that i dont do too well with heights did not help. But there was a calmness which assured me that nothing will go wrong... that I can have absolute faith in the pilot and crew. Thailand time is like 1 hour behind Singapore's so based on the clock ALONE the flight only took one hour hahaz (ok so it took 2 hours) and the Bangkok International Airport looked kind of run down from the outside but it's nice and modern inside ^_^ At the airport we booked a half day tour for the next day... how... last minute X_X
Took a charted Car to the hotel, it was a pretty decent place which was directly connected to a shopping mall ^_^the first day was quite wasted, went window shopping, due to our lack of proficiency in Thai, we were quite lost in the mall, wandering about, ate soem really nice doughnut like thing... fabulous... after eating dinner at a thai restaurant... all vegetables were raw and some things are like odd... nevertheless it was an.. experience after which we went back to the rooms freshen up, watch some un-intelligent thai tv which i knew nothing of and went to sleep (Thank God for the existence of cable on hotel TVs). Oh, the rooms were well furnished but there was a lack of slippers and some other small things in my room... *hmm*
Woke up at like 6am the next day X_X washed up, lazed about abit and then went for breakfast. Woah, the food is like awesome but the choice limited 0_0 Stuffed myself (that 3 days is gonna be worth like 3 months in TAF or something) then went to the hotel lobby... a half day trip to the local canal and some slight sight-seeing blew up into a halfday trip OUTSIDE thailand, visiting the Floating Markets (the pictures tell lies... there is a small "secret" to those nice pics), then to a Snake show (nothing interesting... just a guy who caught a snake in his mouth and a jumping snake that cound jump 2-3m when agitated) and a visit to a wood-carving place... cool stuff... but too expensive to buy anything back (a stool set cost about US$6,500) Then a COMPULSORY visit according to the tour guide to the "diamond industries" of Thailand... and my mother got hooked into buying a ruby pendant (Sigh... women and shopping.. we ALMOST didnt buy too many big things until THERE) then went back to the hotel and we went to he connecting mall again and ate dinner at this chinese restaurant... I must compare... Singapore is far better in terms of food :D
There was this lousy n00b waiter who told us that the 1,500 bhat sharksfin was out of stock so only the 2000 and above kind was avaliable... what a fake, so we ordered a 1,000 bhat version XD the guy must be like .. wah sian, backfire.. these tourists smart, never kena cheated LoLx then also had steamed prawns (only 9 pieces lor the whole dish... stingy) and a piece of snowfish steamed with soy sauce... now normally when you order it is ONE fish, this was ONE piece of ONE side of the fish... Im ready to kick someone now... anyway, we finished up and went back to the rooms, bathed changed and went SHOPPING! Almost bought tons of gifts but my father stopped me X_X hiyaz... became porter again, carry things hahaz... went back and packed my bags, ready to leave the next day... time really flew...
Next day I slept in late and woke up only at about 8-9am hahaz... but my mother took even longer to get ready and I had the time to watch tv in the hotel and they had One Piece and Shaman King, with Grander Musashi also! wahaz, just stoned there and wateched. You know whats BEST? It was ALL RAW! Not even in Thai! Raw Japanese! The SK episode was quite early... Yoh VS Tao Jun's "hired" (i tihnk) ninja person and I forgot what was on One Piece (didnt watch the whole show) but on Grander Musashi it was Musashi vs the Rose lady... oh and they also have Duelmasters... lame show.. totally disregards the rules (like most game based shows) and poor level animation. Took off to the airport in (again) another chartered car (Merc this time woah... nice leather haha) and took the plane.
Grr.. the inflight system on my row was spoilt and could not be fixed X_X How sad so i spent my flight sleeping... reached back and the rest need not be said the usual Sunday night ritual blah the blah.
Its kinds late... 10:23pm now i really want to stay and talk (oh my! [She's] online! but she aint talking... nvm she's like that all I need is to see her in her DP and ill be happy ^_^) But i gtg.. blog tommrrow about PROPER stuff like LIFE. Bye!
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If it aint broke, dont fix it
First day, friday! Nice public holiday, woke up at like 8am or so and continued packing cos lazy me left my packing to the last minute hahaz, then waited around.. nothing interesting happened until 10:40am or so when our dear taxi ride arrived! I used my new bag as carry on ^_^ (Oh yea for those who didnt know I got a new bag! It was like what ive wanted just before school re-opened!!) Uneventful ride to the airport, checked in... and strolled about the terminal... quite a waste of time really, bought the new 8 days and drank an expensive bottle of mineral water (Argh.. airport stuff will always be expensive) Skip Skip Skip to boarding... ^_^ the SIA planes are really cool! I absolutely loved Kris-Flyer In-Flight entertainment system... *drool*
Uneventful flight.. abit of turbulence here and there... the fact that i dont do too well with heights did not help. But there was a calmness which assured me that nothing will go wrong... that I can have absolute faith in the pilot and crew. Thailand time is like 1 hour behind Singapore's so based on the clock ALONE the flight only took one hour hahaz (ok so it took 2 hours) and the Bangkok International Airport looked kind of run down from the outside but it's nice and modern inside ^_^ At the airport we booked a half day tour for the next day... how... last minute X_X
Took a charted Car to the hotel, it was a pretty decent place which was directly connected to a shopping mall ^_^the first day was quite wasted, went window shopping, due to our lack of proficiency in Thai, we were quite lost in the mall, wandering about, ate soem really nice doughnut like thing... fabulous... after eating dinner at a thai restaurant... all vegetables were raw and some things are like odd... nevertheless it was an.. experience after which we went back to the rooms freshen up, watch some un-intelligent thai tv which i knew nothing of and went to sleep (Thank God for the existence of cable on hotel TVs). Oh, the rooms were well furnished but there was a lack of slippers and some other small things in my room... *hmm*
Woke up at like 6am the next day X_X washed up, lazed about abit and then went for breakfast. Woah, the food is like awesome but the choice limited 0_0 Stuffed myself (that 3 days is gonna be worth like 3 months in TAF or something) then went to the hotel lobby... a half day trip to the local canal and some slight sight-seeing blew up into a halfday trip OUTSIDE thailand, visiting the Floating Markets (the pictures tell lies... there is a small "secret" to those nice pics), then to a Snake show (nothing interesting... just a guy who caught a snake in his mouth and a jumping snake that cound jump 2-3m when agitated) and a visit to a wood-carving place... cool stuff... but too expensive to buy anything back (a stool set cost about US$6,500) Then a COMPULSORY visit according to the tour guide to the "diamond industries" of Thailand... and my mother got hooked into buying a ruby pendant (Sigh... women and shopping.. we ALMOST didnt buy too many big things until THERE) then went back to the hotel and we went to he connecting mall again and ate dinner at this chinese restaurant... I must compare... Singapore is far better in terms of food :D
There was this lousy n00b waiter who told us that the 1,500 bhat sharksfin was out of stock so only the 2000 and above kind was avaliable... what a fake, so we ordered a 1,000 bhat version XD the guy must be like .. wah sian, backfire.. these tourists smart, never kena cheated LoLx then also had steamed prawns (only 9 pieces lor the whole dish... stingy) and a piece of snowfish steamed with soy sauce... now normally when you order it is ONE fish, this was ONE piece of ONE side of the fish... Im ready to kick someone now... anyway, we finished up and went back to the rooms, bathed changed and went SHOPPING! Almost bought tons of gifts but my father stopped me X_X hiyaz... became porter again, carry things hahaz... went back and packed my bags, ready to leave the next day... time really flew...
Next day I slept in late and woke up only at about 8-9am hahaz... but my mother took even longer to get ready and I had the time to watch tv in the hotel and they had One Piece and Shaman King, with Grander Musashi also! wahaz, just stoned there and wateched. You know whats BEST? It was ALL RAW! Not even in Thai! Raw Japanese! The SK episode was quite early... Yoh VS Tao Jun's "hired" (i tihnk) ninja person and I forgot what was on One Piece (didnt watch the whole show) but on Grander Musashi it was Musashi vs the Rose lady... oh and they also have Duelmasters... lame show.. totally disregards the rules (like most game based shows) and poor level animation. Took off to the airport in (again) another chartered car (Merc this time woah... nice leather haha) and took the plane.
Grr.. the inflight system on my row was spoilt and could not be fixed X_X How sad so i spent my flight sleeping... reached back and the rest need not be said the usual Sunday night ritual blah the blah.
Its kinds late... 10:23pm now i really want to stay and talk (oh my! [She's] online! but she aint talking... nvm she's like that all I need is to see her in her DP and ill be happy ^_^) But i gtg.. blog tommrrow about PROPER stuff like LIFE. Bye!
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If it aint broke, dont fix it
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Phasing Out...
Got confronted by Mr Tan (Oliver) this morning for missing NCC yesterday.. haiz.. Am I falling back into that trap again? And my D & T thing... All my 8 ideas got rejected by Mr Tan (Kim Huat).. Then Jun Ming so extra! Go and tear it up O.O I could just edit it but aiya... nvm reprint... Anyways it looks terrible haha.
I have an insane idea. An Idea I think I thought of out of sheer desperation. Since all the O level papers are just sent here from Cambridge and MOE does not have a DIRECT hand in what we take... Technically I could pay extra and sit for a paper which I am not studying in my combination! And so, I hit upon this idea, if I can pull this off, I want to take Lit for one of my O level subjects! Even though I am not studying Lit NOW, I have mastered King of the Castle in 2003 and about one quarter of 12th Night, I'll need to put in a ton of effort to learn all the things i have not learnt but... It is a risk I am 100% Willing to take! So I took a step of courage / desperation and asked Miss Kodi if it were possible, And again, technically it is, but she does not have the authority to make such desicions... it will have to go to the principal, my form teacher and parents. But I can't be a private candidate AND a school candidate at the same time, neither is it practical for the school to hold ONE paper for ONE pupil, for the entire year. Call me crazy or whatever you want! Im going to try! If it fails so be it, but if it works... I think as a sign of goodwill, I may ask LeeLin if she wants to try too ^_^
Hyper and all excited over the prospect mentioned above but Miss Kodi will try to find out if it is possible. Hmm.. very tired today, the energy is just not flowing. On Wednesday evening I fell down and scraped my left shin, looks quite ugly and stings quite irritatingly but it's bearable.. now Im lame, literally hahaz .. Lame XD
Trying very hard to keep the bad mood down now that the thrill of finding that I could / might have a shot at my insane plan... the psat few days was just one letdown after another. I might say Im off form or whatever excuse I may give but the energy and all is just not flowing... feelign abit guilty too, been online abit too much recently. Which means I scratched time off other more... constructive places... super G U I L T Y.
Random Thought of the moment : I really like "Still Waiting" by Sum 41... it might be a little loud, but I like the lyrics. I really want to ask myself... "So why am I still waiting? " what am I waiting for? Why procrastinate? Why wait and let time slip by meaninglessly. There never EVER will be a 20th of January 2004 4:49pm ever again no matter what you do. Time lost is gone forever, so why are we wasting it like we have all the time in the world?
In about 18 - 20 hours I will be hanging about in Changi Airport waiting for my flight. I still dont believe it.. it is just like a dream. I go to school, Im alive, I come home and I am like in a dream. Like this feel of the keys under my finger, the sound in my ears, the smell of food in the kitchen, all so fake. Hmm.. whats wrong? I dont know, seriously. But I know someone who does, who knows everything and I am 100% sure He can help. Want to know? Dont laugh now, He is God. Recently to stop myself from falling asleep in classes Ive been singing to myself ya know? And I found that I forgot the lyrics to many songs... but I like "I believe that the presence of God is here" and "Running After You". Yesterday some people from the next class borrowed my calculator and I forgot that I scribbled a few lines from "Magnificent" on the back. Hmm... interesting mix of responses ^_^ anyhow, it is effective. But now if I dont I'll still nod off =_= Sorry all teachers... But I have "sub-concious" absorbtion that lets me answer your question even if Im half asleep XD (something I need to master if I am not skilled with the use of the Awake Face Stoning Technique)
So sad! I like wont be seeing everyone for like 2 weeks T_T I dont know hwy but the thought just saddens me ALOT. I wonder how I survived that 5 months without you all. I was reading the birthday card that my old cell (Sandra's one) gave me during my 5 month odd absence... suddenly it was as if the card EDITED itself... the words "We miss you" and "come back soon" Feels so... I dont know how to describe. I dont think Ive felt this way before...
Listening to Superman by Goldfinger. Fabulous song, I like the lyrics, listen carefully ^_^ I guess I got to go pack my stuff... Yea! I havent even packed haha! Ok lahz, go pack now... Ill try to get pictures and everything k? Im gonna miss all of you in this two weeks... Sayonara
Quote of the Post:
To the ends of the earth... just for You
I have an insane idea. An Idea I think I thought of out of sheer desperation. Since all the O level papers are just sent here from Cambridge and MOE does not have a DIRECT hand in what we take... Technically I could pay extra and sit for a paper which I am not studying in my combination! And so, I hit upon this idea, if I can pull this off, I want to take Lit for one of my O level subjects! Even though I am not studying Lit NOW, I have mastered King of the Castle in 2003 and about one quarter of 12th Night, I'll need to put in a ton of effort to learn all the things i have not learnt but... It is a risk I am 100% Willing to take! So I took a step of courage / desperation and asked Miss Kodi if it were possible, And again, technically it is, but she does not have the authority to make such desicions... it will have to go to the principal, my form teacher and parents. But I can't be a private candidate AND a school candidate at the same time, neither is it practical for the school to hold ONE paper for ONE pupil, for the entire year. Call me crazy or whatever you want! Im going to try! If it fails so be it, but if it works... I think as a sign of goodwill, I may ask LeeLin if she wants to try too ^_^
Hyper and all excited over the prospect mentioned above but Miss Kodi will try to find out if it is possible. Hmm.. very tired today, the energy is just not flowing. On Wednesday evening I fell down and scraped my left shin, looks quite ugly and stings quite irritatingly but it's bearable.. now Im lame, literally hahaz .. Lame XD
Trying very hard to keep the bad mood down now that the thrill of finding that I could / might have a shot at my insane plan... the psat few days was just one letdown after another. I might say Im off form or whatever excuse I may give but the energy and all is just not flowing... feelign abit guilty too, been online abit too much recently. Which means I scratched time off other more... constructive places... super G U I L T Y.
Random Thought of the moment : I really like "Still Waiting" by Sum 41... it might be a little loud, but I like the lyrics. I really want to ask myself... "So why am I still waiting? " what am I waiting for? Why procrastinate? Why wait and let time slip by meaninglessly. There never EVER will be a 20th of January 2004 4:49pm ever again no matter what you do. Time lost is gone forever, so why are we wasting it like we have all the time in the world?
In about 18 - 20 hours I will be hanging about in Changi Airport waiting for my flight. I still dont believe it.. it is just like a dream. I go to school, Im alive, I come home and I am like in a dream. Like this feel of the keys under my finger, the sound in my ears, the smell of food in the kitchen, all so fake. Hmm.. whats wrong? I dont know, seriously. But I know someone who does, who knows everything and I am 100% sure He can help. Want to know? Dont laugh now, He is God. Recently to stop myself from falling asleep in classes Ive been singing to myself ya know? And I found that I forgot the lyrics to many songs... but I like "I believe that the presence of God is here" and "Running After You". Yesterday some people from the next class borrowed my calculator and I forgot that I scribbled a few lines from "Magnificent" on the back. Hmm... interesting mix of responses ^_^ anyhow, it is effective. But now if I dont I'll still nod off =_= Sorry all teachers... But I have "sub-concious" absorbtion that lets me answer your question even if Im half asleep XD (something I need to master if I am not skilled with the use of the Awake Face Stoning Technique)
So sad! I like wont be seeing everyone for like 2 weeks T_T I dont know hwy but the thought just saddens me ALOT. I wonder how I survived that 5 months without you all. I was reading the birthday card that my old cell (Sandra's one) gave me during my 5 month odd absence... suddenly it was as if the card EDITED itself... the words "We miss you" and "come back soon" Feels so... I dont know how to describe. I dont think Ive felt this way before...
Listening to Superman by Goldfinger. Fabulous song, I like the lyrics, listen carefully ^_^ I guess I got to go pack my stuff... Yea! I havent even packed haha! Ok lahz, go pack now... Ill try to get pictures and everything k? Im gonna miss all of you in this two weeks... Sayonara
Quote of the Post:
To the ends of the earth... just for You
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
New Skin!
Wahahaz! New Skin, New Skin! I just LOVE my new Hagane no Renkinjutsushi skin!! This is going to stick around for some time. If you can read this then my next annoucement does not concern you... Seems like some people cant load my blog with this new skin.. no point posting it here cos .. you get the point!
Sorry for not blogging for so many days... D & T tommrrow.. tommrrow is THURSDAY! The day we need to hand in our problem situations and practically our project idea! Still no ideas? Well... Ill think of something, I always do... PoA test today, aww shucks... I didnt study so NATURALLY it is going to be pretty ugly hahaz. Did Titration for Chem today! So fun... I want to do it again hahaz... OK lar.. even though my end results werent too good (having too much fun twirling e conical flask around) it was fun! (Look at that... getting so excited over a little thing like that so stupid right? Hahaz)
This friday is a PUBLIS HOLIDAY! Which means -> Long Weekend! But while everyone is going off to the Ignite Concert, Ill be packing my bags off to Bangkok, Thailand! Dont ask me why Im going at such a time and so on but Yea... Thats all I know. Seriously? I rather be right here... in Singapore, near and with [- Ristricted - ] but dont worry, Ill be back, Safe and Sound. And If I can, Ill get presents ^_^ Just throw me a list (Yay!) ....and pay me back (Boo!) But i'll miss everyone!
I wont be seeing all of ya for almost 2 weeks.. take care k? And remember to take tons of notes from the Ignite so I can learn abit too! Hmm... they say time passes in a blink of an eye but Ive blinked till my eyes are sore and time is so slow now. I finally undertand the fear of my friends... Even though you know time is short and all... You will be super slack and not feel very motivated to cram until it comes down to like the last month or two and the four years of stress will fall on your head and crush you... for now Im in the super slacky period... urgh... I dont like it X_X
Hmm hmm hmm... Now that life is all back in place, school is normal and there is homework and everything. The problem? Things are going BACK TO NORMAL! I dont want things to be normal! This year, I am to make a difference, not like in the past, not any more, things have changed, I know it! but I just cant make it apply in school!
Hm... well i gtg now, Pack AND do my mountain of homework... so ill be seeing all of you around k? Bye!
Quote of e post:
So Blessed I Can't Contain It, So Much I Gotta Give It Away...
Sorry for not blogging for so many days... D & T tommrrow.. tommrrow is THURSDAY! The day we need to hand in our problem situations and practically our project idea! Still no ideas? Well... Ill think of something, I always do... PoA test today, aww shucks... I didnt study so NATURALLY it is going to be pretty ugly hahaz. Did Titration for Chem today! So fun... I want to do it again hahaz... OK lar.. even though my end results werent too good (having too much fun twirling e conical flask around) it was fun! (Look at that... getting so excited over a little thing like that so stupid right? Hahaz)
This friday is a PUBLIS HOLIDAY! Which means -> Long Weekend! But while everyone is going off to the Ignite Concert, Ill be packing my bags off to Bangkok, Thailand! Dont ask me why Im going at such a time and so on but Yea... Thats all I know. Seriously? I rather be right here... in Singapore, near and with [- Ristricted - ] but dont worry, Ill be back, Safe and Sound. And If I can, Ill get presents ^_^ Just throw me a list (Yay!) ....and pay me back (Boo!) But i'll miss everyone!
I wont be seeing all of ya for almost 2 weeks.. take care k? And remember to take tons of notes from the Ignite so I can learn abit too! Hmm... they say time passes in a blink of an eye but Ive blinked till my eyes are sore and time is so slow now. I finally undertand the fear of my friends... Even though you know time is short and all... You will be super slack and not feel very motivated to cram until it comes down to like the last month or two and the four years of stress will fall on your head and crush you... for now Im in the super slacky period... urgh... I dont like it X_X
Hmm hmm hmm... Now that life is all back in place, school is normal and there is homework and everything. The problem? Things are going BACK TO NORMAL! I dont want things to be normal! This year, I am to make a difference, not like in the past, not any more, things have changed, I know it! but I just cant make it apply in school!
Hm... well i gtg now, Pack AND do my mountain of homework... so ill be seeing all of you around k? Bye!
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So Blessed I Can't Contain It, So Much I Gotta Give It Away...
Saturday, January 15, 2005
Visionary...
One more week rolls by as work begins to pile up. Miss Kodi is becoming more and more like a friend than a teacher to the class, with an image somewhat like our form-teacher Oo. Still stuck ok D&T which is becoming worse as Problem Situations are required come Thursday. Very sleepy these few days, totally forgotten all my old PoA stuff overthe holidays... need to refreseh. TAF in the morning drains my already waning energy... not to mention the full day ahead.
After school, was chosen to go to the Singapore Science Centre for a talk with some others by Mr Tan Kim Huat (My D & T teacher). Not only did I waste a perfectly good Friday afternoon on the talk, It had NOTHING to do with D & T... entitled Electrons and Micoelectronics, it was more of a physics heavy session. We were all like super lost amongst the other schools like RI and Zhong Hua (2 buses) Now, setting off at 2 the school had this like 40+ seater bus to fetch like 7 - 8 of us! Shiok, but only one way trip. Reached and slacked about eating until about 3. Talk lasted an hour and walked around the next hour while the girls left earlier... ended up taking MRT from Jurong East to Outram to Kovan.
Tidied up and left for Youth Vision Day! Had lots of fun, all the tiredness just melted away during the session. Cecelia gave me my birthday present for 2004 (really not neccessary and un-expected!) it was a cool OP bag.. I considered swapping out my schoolbag for this, but it is too small.... Nvm then It will replace my Deuter bag for a while.. and I'll see how it unfolds. New member Qian Xiang, we all click well (Maybe cos he is abit insane too ^_^) so there was no akwardness, makes our life ALOT easier. He will most likely be joining our cell, so good lors ^_^
I have no right to complain but life always likes to play some kind of joke that is like really NOT FUNNY on me... and I fell again... I thought I had already given up hope on that route, but it had to be busted open by force ALL OVER AGAIN. Confused and stirred again... took me so long to forget the whole thing, I do not have that kind of time now!!
I feel SO guilty... I was angry, but I had NO reason to, and I almost let it get the better of me just because she said a casual remark to throw my question off. Then all the way back was like so buay song towards him... I knew that I had no reason to, but the circumstances were abit odd and I might have been a little tired, but still it was no excuse... Next time I get the chance, Im gonna apologise to him... yea... still it is too early, far too early and there is still that wild card and many other factors, I really have no idea how all this will play out. But for now, the way things are.. Im content, in fact it could be worse. I am thankful.
Later (now is already saturday morning) meeting all the other ER's and maybe some of the AR's for lunch... in a bid to raise RR unity ^_^ Pulled Darrell and Kenneth back (or so RS said) but Sean stil unconfirmed. Maybe tommrrow call him to come down... No real idea. Still reeking with guilt but I will still get a little angry just thinking about it.. it has been hours and hours.. when did this little thing begin? I think from watchnight bah.. yea, from after watchnight... wow, I kept that little hidden "grudge" for so long and didnt even know it existed.
Aiya!! Owe Anna her present on Sunday X_X Hmm.. guess I'll spend saturday looking for it... I dont think It will take to long if Im lucky but I have a bad feeling my plans wil fall and shatter. Tests piling up, got my first revision test back (maths) sian, only 13/20 plus one mark was a SUPER careless mistake... saw 28 as just 8... then English diagnostic test.. was last year's O level Nov paper 2 w/o summary. Only 17/25... Am I losing my touch? The 10 point goal seems to far away now. Can I ever chase my dreams at this rate... and with my subject combination If I make the higher class schools.. I cant take proper subjects... but that is where my goal is! Dilemma...
Life is dragging, and Im losing it all over again. I WONT!! I tell myself, spurring myself on to keep on. It is only a matter of time, the seed is planted, all it needs is good care and time.. time we do not have. 2006, the year stated in the Bible Code that the world will end, the end time signs are already here... I try not to question or think about it but it wont leave me alone. Keeps getting me all shaken and scared... disasters like the Tsunami, Earthquake and Volcanic Eruption are natural.. but all at the same time? I believe these are signs of the end times... And here I am still not doing anything... Now am I to face the Lord when my friends protest that I never shared with them the way before the end? How will I begin?
What is my motivation to study? Why do I want so desperately to get those grades? What is the reason... can that reason be the TRUE reason? It seems to foolish, a rash moment, yet so tangible! So close, but now further away then ever. Today the night sky was so beautiful, few clouds were around to blot out the stars today... it was so majestic... I have not gone star gazing for years. A leisure I DO NOT have time for.
It is like 2.30am already... Feeling tired now that my body clock reset to school timing again... no more sleeping at 4am for me haha... at least not until November ^_^ Getting off now... Keep me in your prayers k? I really need that support.. thanks...
Quote:
Is is no loss to give up what we cannot keep, to gain what we cannot lose.
After school, was chosen to go to the Singapore Science Centre for a talk with some others by Mr Tan Kim Huat (My D & T teacher). Not only did I waste a perfectly good Friday afternoon on the talk, It had NOTHING to do with D & T... entitled Electrons and Micoelectronics, it was more of a physics heavy session. We were all like super lost amongst the other schools like RI and Zhong Hua (2 buses) Now, setting off at 2 the school had this like 40+ seater bus to fetch like 7 - 8 of us! Shiok, but only one way trip. Reached and slacked about eating until about 3. Talk lasted an hour and walked around the next hour while the girls left earlier... ended up taking MRT from Jurong East to Outram to Kovan.
Tidied up and left for Youth Vision Day! Had lots of fun, all the tiredness just melted away during the session. Cecelia gave me my birthday present for 2004 (really not neccessary and un-expected!) it was a cool OP bag.. I considered swapping out my schoolbag for this, but it is too small.... Nvm then It will replace my Deuter bag for a while.. and I'll see how it unfolds. New member Qian Xiang, we all click well (Maybe cos he is abit insane too ^_^) so there was no akwardness, makes our life ALOT easier. He will most likely be joining our cell, so good lors ^_^
I have no right to complain but life always likes to play some kind of joke that is like really NOT FUNNY on me... and I fell again... I thought I had already given up hope on that route, but it had to be busted open by force ALL OVER AGAIN. Confused and stirred again... took me so long to forget the whole thing, I do not have that kind of time now!!
I feel SO guilty... I was angry, but I had NO reason to, and I almost let it get the better of me just because she said a casual remark to throw my question off. Then all the way back was like so buay song towards him... I knew that I had no reason to, but the circumstances were abit odd and I might have been a little tired, but still it was no excuse... Next time I get the chance, Im gonna apologise to him... yea... still it is too early, far too early and there is still that wild card and many other factors, I really have no idea how all this will play out. But for now, the way things are.. Im content, in fact it could be worse. I am thankful.
Later (now is already saturday morning) meeting all the other ER's and maybe some of the AR's for lunch... in a bid to raise RR unity ^_^ Pulled Darrell and Kenneth back (or so RS said) but Sean stil unconfirmed. Maybe tommrrow call him to come down... No real idea. Still reeking with guilt but I will still get a little angry just thinking about it.. it has been hours and hours.. when did this little thing begin? I think from watchnight bah.. yea, from after watchnight... wow, I kept that little hidden "grudge" for so long and didnt even know it existed.
Aiya!! Owe Anna her present on Sunday X_X Hmm.. guess I'll spend saturday looking for it... I dont think It will take to long if Im lucky but I have a bad feeling my plans wil fall and shatter. Tests piling up, got my first revision test back (maths) sian, only 13/20 plus one mark was a SUPER careless mistake... saw 28 as just 8... then English diagnostic test.. was last year's O level Nov paper 2 w/o summary. Only 17/25... Am I losing my touch? The 10 point goal seems to far away now. Can I ever chase my dreams at this rate... and with my subject combination If I make the higher class schools.. I cant take proper subjects... but that is where my goal is! Dilemma...
Life is dragging, and Im losing it all over again. I WONT!! I tell myself, spurring myself on to keep on. It is only a matter of time, the seed is planted, all it needs is good care and time.. time we do not have. 2006, the year stated in the Bible Code that the world will end, the end time signs are already here... I try not to question or think about it but it wont leave me alone. Keeps getting me all shaken and scared... disasters like the Tsunami, Earthquake and Volcanic Eruption are natural.. but all at the same time? I believe these are signs of the end times... And here I am still not doing anything... Now am I to face the Lord when my friends protest that I never shared with them the way before the end? How will I begin?
What is my motivation to study? Why do I want so desperately to get those grades? What is the reason... can that reason be the TRUE reason? It seems to foolish, a rash moment, yet so tangible! So close, but now further away then ever. Today the night sky was so beautiful, few clouds were around to blot out the stars today... it was so majestic... I have not gone star gazing for years. A leisure I DO NOT have time for.
It is like 2.30am already... Feeling tired now that my body clock reset to school timing again... no more sleeping at 4am for me haha... at least not until November ^_^ Getting off now... Keep me in your prayers k? I really need that support.. thanks...
Quote:
Is is no loss to give up what we cannot keep, to gain what we cannot lose.
Monday, January 10, 2005
Updates Again...
New layout as you can see... I don't really like it alot, but hey, I'm just trying it out for size. I'll most likely switch back to the previous one soon cos this one is kind of small making it abit hard to see things, and the tag-board input boxes are barely visible and It is SO NOT ME X_X... and I put back my SUPER long long time ago midi, I still like this song, it gives a sort or happy feeling to me no matter how many times I hear it (even if I dont hear the song, only the midi)... so yeas.
Arithmatic test tommrrow! Wahaz, don't sound like it will kill me. Then tons of homework waiting to pile up and bury us! CCA open house on Wednesday afternoon, but the upper-sec not involved cos we will be stuck in class till like 3 pm X_+ Aiyah, no choice. Got "chosen" to go for this exhibition thing at the Singapore Science Centre this friday after school, one way bus ride and thats it. No idea what thing, but been "asked" to go.. hope it is interesting or I will DIE... hope it does not end too late also as I still have Cell-Group later on after that.
This is like supposed to be a short update post but since Im on now, why not take the chance to blog? Not that I have mnuch to blog now anyhow. School has re-opened... so there isn't much to blog about. Umm... Got re-instated in NCC, im going to be the photographer! ^_^ Such a cool job (I like it! Wahahaz) Still got a ton of homework to ruch out... stopping here.. bye bye!
Quote of e post:
People who want to die, hurry up and die. You're wasting good air.
Arithmatic test tommrrow! Wahaz, don't sound like it will kill me. Then tons of homework waiting to pile up and bury us! CCA open house on Wednesday afternoon, but the upper-sec not involved cos we will be stuck in class till like 3 pm X_+ Aiyah, no choice. Got "chosen" to go for this exhibition thing at the Singapore Science Centre this friday after school, one way bus ride and thats it. No idea what thing, but been "asked" to go.. hope it is interesting or I will DIE... hope it does not end too late also as I still have Cell-Group later on after that.
This is like supposed to be a short update post but since Im on now, why not take the chance to blog? Not that I have mnuch to blog now anyhow. School has re-opened... so there isn't much to blog about. Umm... Got re-instated in NCC, im going to be the photographer! ^_^ Such a cool job (I like it! Wahahaz) Still got a ton of homework to ruch out... stopping here.. bye bye!
Quote of e post:
People who want to die, hurry up and die. You're wasting good air.
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Weeked at Last!
Friday night, this is going to be another two part post cos now is like 1:50 am on Saturday morning, but as long as before I sleep it count it as Friday night :P
Wooh! The first week-end since school re-opened. Taking my first real solid stay-up since school re-opened too. Wahaz, recently took height and weight, and as per usual, back in TAF again. 120% AGAIN, this holidays I really put on alot of weight, must be cos I ate and slept and generally didnt exercise and slacked a whole lot.
School work load is gradually increasing, but it is mostly managable is you don't slack too much, if you will yourself too, it isnt so much that you cant can finish within one shot. I must have gone quite insane... on Wednesday night just for no good reason I went and did like a hundred, yes 100 situps... and now my entire abdomen area hurts... aches... cant laugh, cant strech it, cant even stand up all the way straight, or the pain will intensify a thousand fold and reduce me to a blubbering mess.
Tests and stuff ALL begin next week, not that Im not ready but they really are rushing this year aren't they. This year will be really short and time will fly so fast you'd think it were still January when you last bothered to think about the date. Good news is that there are no Mid Years this year! But to make up for that there are going to be 3 CA's, made up of our common tests (In the 8th or 9th weeks of each term) , class tests and alternative assesments which is simply any piece of gradable work our teacher fancies which streches the whole level.
CCA is back, and im re-initiated into NCC (again after being MIA for about 1 year) as a photographer! Wahaz! Im SO Gonna LOVE my job ^_^ CCA day is every friday, but we have NCC training on Wednesday, Im not sure if it is added on on or there is only one training per week on Wednesday... cos I like have to rush back and prepare for Cell-Group hahaz...
So angry! Miss Kodi said there was a CHRISTIAN teacher who exclaimed that "the end of the world is coming, no need to mark work or study"... What rubbish! Even more so should we work hard on it and be a good testimony!
Saturday morning!! Woke up quite late about 10am... went and did some stuff for NCC (Seems like ive also become the admin person... at least for this job) and the class. Got a TON of homework waiting to be done and Im still stuck and lost on what to do for my D & T thing... So many things, tests, CCA recruitment drive, homework blah da blah... and I just forgot to do my QT last night (for friday) X_X Argh.
I love this new song Ive found! Quite old, 1995 by Hillsongs (I got this off an old casette tape) Titled "I Believe The Presence"
I believe the promise
About the visions
And the dreams
That the Holy Spirit
Will be poured out
And His power will be seen
Well the time is now
And the place is here
And His people have
Come in faith
There's a mighty sound
And a touch of fire
When we're gathered in one place
-Chorus-
I believe that the
Presence of God is here
There's not one thing
That can't be changed
When the Spirit of God is near
I believe that the
Presence of God is here
When two or three are gathered
When people rise in faith
I believe God answers
And that His presence is in this place
Repeat Verse and Chorus
Nothing on Heaven or Earth
Can stop the power of God
Into our hands is given
The call to take it on
No ocean can contain it
No star can rise above
Into our hearts is given
The power of his love
Repeart Chorus 3x
Fabulous song! I especially like the phrase" There's not one thing that can't be changed when the spirit of God is near" Arms aching now lol especially mr fore-arms... hurts alogn with my stomach... ill sign off now, see all of you around k? Gambatte!!
Quote of the post:
I Will Never Let You Go...
Wooh! The first week-end since school re-opened. Taking my first real solid stay-up since school re-opened too. Wahaz, recently took height and weight, and as per usual, back in TAF again. 120% AGAIN, this holidays I really put on alot of weight, must be cos I ate and slept and generally didnt exercise and slacked a whole lot.
School work load is gradually increasing, but it is mostly managable is you don't slack too much, if you will yourself too, it isnt so much that you cant can finish within one shot. I must have gone quite insane... on Wednesday night just for no good reason I went and did like a hundred, yes 100 situps... and now my entire abdomen area hurts... aches... cant laugh, cant strech it, cant even stand up all the way straight, or the pain will intensify a thousand fold and reduce me to a blubbering mess.
Tests and stuff ALL begin next week, not that Im not ready but they really are rushing this year aren't they. This year will be really short and time will fly so fast you'd think it were still January when you last bothered to think about the date. Good news is that there are no Mid Years this year! But to make up for that there are going to be 3 CA's, made up of our common tests (In the 8th or 9th weeks of each term) , class tests and alternative assesments which is simply any piece of gradable work our teacher fancies which streches the whole level.
CCA is back, and im re-initiated into NCC (again after being MIA for about 1 year) as a photographer! Wahaz! Im SO Gonna LOVE my job ^_^ CCA day is every friday, but we have NCC training on Wednesday, Im not sure if it is added on on or there is only one training per week on Wednesday... cos I like have to rush back and prepare for Cell-Group hahaz...
So angry! Miss Kodi said there was a CHRISTIAN teacher who exclaimed that "the end of the world is coming, no need to mark work or study"... What rubbish! Even more so should we work hard on it and be a good testimony!
Saturday morning!! Woke up quite late about 10am... went and did some stuff for NCC (Seems like ive also become the admin person... at least for this job) and the class. Got a TON of homework waiting to be done and Im still stuck and lost on what to do for my D & T thing... So many things, tests, CCA recruitment drive, homework blah da blah... and I just forgot to do my QT last night (for friday) X_X Argh.
I love this new song Ive found! Quite old, 1995 by Hillsongs (I got this off an old casette tape) Titled "I Believe The Presence"
I believe the promise
About the visions
And the dreams
That the Holy Spirit
Will be poured out
And His power will be seen
Well the time is now
And the place is here
And His people have
Come in faith
There's a mighty sound
And a touch of fire
When we're gathered in one place
-Chorus-
I believe that the
Presence of God is here
There's not one thing
That can't be changed
When the Spirit of God is near
I believe that the
Presence of God is here
When two or three are gathered
When people rise in faith
I believe God answers
And that His presence is in this place
Repeat Verse and Chorus
Nothing on Heaven or Earth
Can stop the power of God
Into our hands is given
The call to take it on
No ocean can contain it
No star can rise above
Into our hearts is given
The power of his love
Repeart Chorus 3x
Fabulous song! I especially like the phrase" There's not one thing that can't be changed when the spirit of God is near" Arms aching now lol especially mr fore-arms... hurts alogn with my stomach... ill sign off now, see all of you around k? Gambatte!!
Quote of the post:
I Will Never Let You Go...
Thursday, January 06, 2005
Short Quick Post
Ok this is going to be as short and as quick as possible cos I am already FAR OVER my time limit. Life in school is getting better now that Im all used to it. Time is ticking down day by day, I dont know why im stressing myself up for, but I am X_X Maybe cos that's the only way I work best... And I NEED THAT! (There I go stressing myself again)
Took a diagnostic test for english on Tuesday, It was the 2004 O level English PAper 2 and It was a JOKE! I mean it looks easy to me... but I cant boast, results out tommrrow... Lets see how I fare. Ive heard that the O level's are easy one year and hard the next, then easy again, a cycle. I think, I got the hard year, cos this year's D & T theme is so Difficult! TRANSPORTATION, what project to make? A car?! A trolley?! X_x i was totally lost for ideas this afternoon when we were presented with our question script.
Any ideas, feel free to throw them this way, I need a possible project idea made of two or more of the following materials (Wood, Metal, Plastic) which is original and cannot be found on the market, must be pleasant on the eye and safe for general usage. You can intepret the theme in any way yuo want as long as you can logically justify it. Tag me or e-mail me or tell me via MSN or sms or whatever! I really can do with ANY IDEA I CAN GET!
Thats it, short right? Ill blog again as soon as i can bye!
Quote of e Post:
Dont look, See. Don't hear, Listen. Dont just know, Understand
Took a diagnostic test for english on Tuesday, It was the 2004 O level English PAper 2 and It was a JOKE! I mean it looks easy to me... but I cant boast, results out tommrrow... Lets see how I fare. Ive heard that the O level's are easy one year and hard the next, then easy again, a cycle. I think, I got the hard year, cos this year's D & T theme is so Difficult! TRANSPORTATION, what project to make? A car?! A trolley?! X_x i was totally lost for ideas this afternoon when we were presented with our question script.
Any ideas, feel free to throw them this way, I need a possible project idea made of two or more of the following materials (Wood, Metal, Plastic) which is original and cannot be found on the market, must be pleasant on the eye and safe for general usage. You can intepret the theme in any way yuo want as long as you can logically justify it. Tag me or e-mail me or tell me via MSN or sms or whatever! I really can do with ANY IDEA I CAN GET!
Thats it, short right? Ill blog again as soon as i can bye!
Quote of e Post:
Dont look, See. Don't hear, Listen. Dont just know, Understand
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Actual First Day of School
Ok, so yesterday wasen't exactly the first day of school, seeing that we didn't do any official teaching or anything ofthat sort. Today, the 4th of January... school officially began for me with timetable and all up, it wasen't as bad as it seemed.
Before I continue, Do NOT ask why I have not said a SINGLE thing about the Tsunami or anything to that effect, I WILL not mention it in my blog for the very reason that my blog is for my personal writing enjoyment, I WILL NOT bog myself down with that. Call me un-symapthatic or insensitive if you want, if you want to talk about that kind of thing, talk to me face ot face, It's better.
Huge mess up early in the morning. I dont have a bus pass or an Ez-link card so how was I supposed to sign-out the Class Key? And so I prayed to the lord for hepl and began to frantically I ask around for help to no avail until I reached my last resort and asked Miss (or should it be Mrs since now she is married?) Shim to help sign out the key, *sigh* I guess I will have to think of something tommrrow. And I just took the key she signed out without looking... when I couldn't open the door, I looked and saw the reason, she had absent-mindedly signed out the 3E class key, and we were 3E LAST YEAR, now in 2005 we are 4E!! Haz... then when I went back, the 4E class key had already been signed out! Turns out Jessica helped out, thank God for answering prayers, and I am no longer in charge of getting the class key ^_^ Since now she knows I am unable UNLESS I use my IC but I dont think I'll risk it...
Although I was pretty tired out, when I finally stepped out the school gates at about 3:15pm all my strength returned to me and I could just sing with joy... odd, where did all that energy go the entire day? I really could have done with some of that.
Joy! There will be NO Mid-years this year, just 3 CAs and then our Prelims will be sort of our final year exams. And of course, the Os themselves. English tescher is Miss Kodi! Even though there wasa general wave of horror when the news got around, she was really good, and could really "connect" with the class, and much unlike her general image of being fierce and all. somehow, she seems to have read my blog O.o and finds it terribally boring, with me just talking about my life, so if you are reading this, tell me, HOW can I improve and make it more... interesting? I dont know...
After two good solid months of slacking and relaxing I am now getting the dreadful "slack withdrawal symptoms" I need a long period of time (more than one day) in a row to just slack and slack and slack. And it comes what? Once in three months or so? *grrr* and now my winamp spoil... and I can't be online as much as I want to... I really wish I owned an Mp3 Player... iPod mini enough liao hahaz... So sa! I don't think I'm being much of a shining light or a glorious testimony of God in my school now, In fact, I am practically looking for an opening, just let the Lord provide an opening and share. The Lord will do the rest.
No matter how much I try to, the way Miss Kodi talked up our class JUST reminds me of Mr Poon. They are both great english teachers... A class of their own, many other new teachers have alot to learn. Wah, even though I tried, I still fell asleep during Physics, cos It was like something we have done before and I was sitting at the back, with the dim lighting, and the fan above me, no sooner had I tried to pay attention had I found myself asleep and dreaming. The jolt back to lessons was abit harsh and I got dragged off to sit somewhere else nearer to the front where I dont have to strain my ears to hear the continual droning for my teacher's voice, and I could sleep no more. So much more to do now, as in usual tradition it is exactly standard to give test announcements and homework on the first official business day of school.
It has only been two days since the holidays ended and so has my "unlimited" free time to think and ponder over all sorts of rubbish, gaze at the sky for hours on end, read an impossible number of blogs andstare longingly at photos. I am not saying that I need a break (we like just came back from one SUPER LONG ONE), it is just that... everything is piling up. Only about 398 days to the first O level written paper, and about 230 days (give and take about a week) to the prelims. And about 7 weeks to the first set of common tests. The teachers have asked us to plan our target grades and stick it on our desks (O.o I didnt know this at first of I wouldnt have written so much there...) I put down what I really WANTED to get, which is possible.. ok quite if I actually pull everything together properly now...
English -> A1 [Im not sure about how hard it is to get when at O level standard but I'll give it my best shot, I always have and It hasen't failed me yet.]
E Math -> A1-A2 [A well known fact that you can score easily in math if you get your concepts and formula's down to pat, I will need to work on that]
PoA -> A2 [It is like maths but instead of knowing the concepts, I want to understand the logic behind it, so it becomes logical instead of something to remember, something JUST to remember]
D & T -> A1 - A2 [This will be one of the biggest hurdles, I will need all the help I can pull for my practical and folio here]
Science (Chem + Physics) -> A1 [This will be a little hard but I think it is really highly possible]
Combined Humanities (Geography + Social Studies) -> A1-A2 [Argh, tough one... I dont think it will be a walk in the park, but with a dash of luck maybe just maybe]
Finally...
Chinese -> B4 [Chinese has never been easy, and even more so now... I just need a pass... but I say, Aim for the moon, so at least if you fail you will land amongst the stars... yup]
If you stuck through that, you can see Im trying for like 10 points for L1R5, yeap I want to go JC Hahaz but Ive heard some disturbing things about CCA that Im trying not to think about. Concentrate on studies first, when I get there, I will see how to go on. Thats all for now, Ive spent long enough here.. signing out!
Quote of the Post:
Send me, I will go, To the cities, to the nations, and to the nations of the world....
Before I continue, Do NOT ask why I have not said a SINGLE thing about the Tsunami or anything to that effect, I WILL not mention it in my blog for the very reason that my blog is for my personal writing enjoyment, I WILL NOT bog myself down with that. Call me un-symapthatic or insensitive if you want, if you want to talk about that kind of thing, talk to me face ot face, It's better.
Huge mess up early in the morning. I dont have a bus pass or an Ez-link card so how was I supposed to sign-out the Class Key? And so I prayed to the lord for hepl and began to frantically I ask around for help to no avail until I reached my last resort and asked Miss (or should it be Mrs since now she is married?) Shim to help sign out the key, *sigh* I guess I will have to think of something tommrrow. And I just took the key she signed out without looking... when I couldn't open the door, I looked and saw the reason, she had absent-mindedly signed out the 3E class key, and we were 3E LAST YEAR, now in 2005 we are 4E!! Haz... then when I went back, the 4E class key had already been signed out! Turns out Jessica helped out, thank God for answering prayers, and I am no longer in charge of getting the class key ^_^ Since now she knows I am unable UNLESS I use my IC but I dont think I'll risk it...
Although I was pretty tired out, when I finally stepped out the school gates at about 3:15pm all my strength returned to me and I could just sing with joy... odd, where did all that energy go the entire day? I really could have done with some of that.
Joy! There will be NO Mid-years this year, just 3 CAs and then our Prelims will be sort of our final year exams. And of course, the Os themselves. English tescher is Miss Kodi! Even though there wasa general wave of horror when the news got around, she was really good, and could really "connect" with the class, and much unlike her general image of being fierce and all. somehow, she seems to have read my blog O.o and finds it terribally boring, with me just talking about my life, so if you are reading this, tell me, HOW can I improve and make it more... interesting? I dont know...
After two good solid months of slacking and relaxing I am now getting the dreadful "slack withdrawal symptoms" I need a long period of time (more than one day) in a row to just slack and slack and slack. And it comes what? Once in three months or so? *grrr* and now my winamp spoil... and I can't be online as much as I want to... I really wish I owned an Mp3 Player... iPod mini enough liao hahaz... So sa! I don't think I'm being much of a shining light or a glorious testimony of God in my school now, In fact, I am practically looking for an opening, just let the Lord provide an opening and share. The Lord will do the rest.
No matter how much I try to, the way Miss Kodi talked up our class JUST reminds me of Mr Poon. They are both great english teachers... A class of their own, many other new teachers have alot to learn. Wah, even though I tried, I still fell asleep during Physics, cos It was like something we have done before and I was sitting at the back, with the dim lighting, and the fan above me, no sooner had I tried to pay attention had I found myself asleep and dreaming. The jolt back to lessons was abit harsh and I got dragged off to sit somewhere else nearer to the front where I dont have to strain my ears to hear the continual droning for my teacher's voice, and I could sleep no more. So much more to do now, as in usual tradition it is exactly standard to give test announcements and homework on the first official business day of school.
It has only been two days since the holidays ended and so has my "unlimited" free time to think and ponder over all sorts of rubbish, gaze at the sky for hours on end, read an impossible number of blogs and
English -> A1 [Im not sure about how hard it is to get when at O level standard but I'll give it my best shot, I always have and It hasen't failed me yet.]
E Math -> A1-A2 [A well known fact that you can score easily in math if you get your concepts and formula's down to pat, I will need to work on that]
PoA -> A2 [It is like maths but instead of knowing the concepts, I want to understand the logic behind it, so it becomes logical instead of something to remember, something JUST to remember]
D & T -> A1 - A2 [This will be one of the biggest hurdles, I will need all the help I can pull for my practical and folio here]
Science (Chem + Physics) -> A1 [This will be a little hard but I think it is really highly possible]
Combined Humanities (Geography + Social Studies) -> A1-A2 [Argh, tough one... I dont think it will be a walk in the park, but with a dash of luck maybe just maybe]
Finally...
Chinese -> B4 [Chinese has never been easy, and even more so now... I just need a pass... but I say, Aim for the moon, so at least if you fail you will land amongst the stars... yup]
If you stuck through that, you can see Im trying for like 10 points for L1R5, yeap I want to go JC Hahaz but Ive heard some disturbing things about CCA that Im trying not to think about. Concentrate on studies first, when I get there, I will see how to go on. Thats all for now, Ive spent long enough here.. signing out!
Quote of the Post:
Send me, I will go, To the cities, to the nations, and to the nations of the world....
Monday, January 03, 2005
School's Back!
School's back! With the implementation of the five-day week thing, school hours have been extended. From the usual of from 7:20am to 1:50pm from mondays to thursdays and from 7:20am to 12:50pm on fridays, changed to from 7:20am to 3pm on monday to thursday and from 7:20am to 2pm on fridays... *sigh* and that is not counting remedial and CCA and extra lessons, which will add up to about 5pm++ aiyahz, complain also cannot change anything, and it isnt that bad, cos we have now more time with the teachers, last year liao, gambatte!! No more slacking!
Went to school early, they are repainting the school! White and beige, nice soothing colors but knowing our un-ruly pupils, within the day, the walls were already half stained with dirty shoe marks, and the rainy wet weather was not helping one bit... Only for today, the school ended super early at like 1pm. Went to class for flag-raising.. then.. got caught! I didn't cut my hair during the holidays and now it is long and messy like a mop, no surprise I got caught, no excuses, no complaints, I deserved it.
After coming up again... the classroom was filthy! So we spent our time before recess cleaning it up and clearing the boards. There is now one lunch one recess, and a few more periods in a day (duhx) they moved USSR backwards to after lunch and moved lessons up, means after flag-raising we go back to class and begin work right away, not that I am complaining ^_^
After recess we got our timetable and teacher lists, our new chinese teacher is a new at our school but a teacher with 7 years of experience teaching elsewhere... forgot her name liaox X_X later go see the paper then know. Got nominated as the monitor, must be something about my age X_X but Lee Lin never get nominated for anything... sian. Now typing out commitee listing and subject heads for printing to pin up on the board tommrrow. Official studies begin tommrrow, I got to go now, from now on I won't have muhc time to be online, O levels this year, I'll try to blog as and when I can, most probably on weekends hopefully. Only about 300 days left, with everything piling up quickly, I can only rely on God to bring me through.
So much more to say, no time to spread it out, see you all soon, Good Luck and God Bless in the new year!
Quote of the Post:
Aim for the moon, at least if you fail, you will land amongst the stars...
Went to school early, they are repainting the school! White and beige, nice soothing colors but knowing our un-ruly pupils, within the day, the walls were already half stained with dirty shoe marks, and the rainy wet weather was not helping one bit... Only for today, the school ended super early at like 1pm. Went to class for flag-raising.. then.. got caught! I didn't cut my hair during the holidays and now it is long and messy like a mop, no surprise I got caught, no excuses, no complaints, I deserved it.
After coming up again... the classroom was filthy! So we spent our time before recess cleaning it up and clearing the boards. There is now one lunch one recess, and a few more periods in a day (duhx) they moved USSR backwards to after lunch and moved lessons up, means after flag-raising we go back to class and begin work right away, not that I am complaining ^_^
After recess we got our timetable and teacher lists, our new chinese teacher is a new at our school but a teacher with 7 years of experience teaching elsewhere... forgot her name liaox X_X later go see the paper then know. Got nominated as the monitor, must be something about my age X_X but Lee Lin never get nominated for anything... sian. Now typing out commitee listing and subject heads for printing to pin up on the board tommrrow. Official studies begin tommrrow, I got to go now, from now on I won't have muhc time to be online, O levels this year, I'll try to blog as and when I can, most probably on weekends hopefully. Only about 300 days left, with everything piling up quickly, I can only rely on God to bring me through.
So much more to say, no time to spread it out, see you all soon, Good Luck and God Bless in the new year!
Quote of the Post:
Aim for the moon, at least if you fail, you will land amongst the stars...
Sunday, January 02, 2005
One Last Day...
It is the morning of the 2nd of January. I was abit too late, i palnned to write this on the 1st or even better on the 31st of December '04 but I didn't have the time. School re-opens tommrrow. And I am NOT happy X_X only one quarter my holiday homework done, and can at best finish half. It is my fault, I wont give any excuses, I played my holiday away and didnt do my homework so this is the result, but before that moment, I will continue doing until I can do no more.
Reflections for the year 2004
2004 was a awesome year. This reflection will be SUPER long so bear with me.
January, the start of a new life AGAIN as a sec 3 express pupil, see everyone else move up to sec 4, and know that I may bever see them again. Even though I do not entirely like these people, it wrenches my heart deep down. Adjusting to new subjects and all... made some new friends, thanks to Monk and gang ^_^ 24th of january, NEVER Forget this date, graduated from S.W.P I will never again, never. I wont turn back and go that way ever again, as long as I live.
Feburary... Re-united with the Youth... You dont know HOW HAPPY I AM... Never again... never again, somewhere I belong, where I am accepted for who I am. Feburary blows in and out nothing big, tensions rise between the teachers and the pupils. I find our class... quite disturbingly... distruptive. I begin to see a bleack future, but nvm gambatte! I hope I can do something... Lee Lin is doing surprisingly normal considering her edge.. warm up maybe? March, the weather begins to kill... did really surprisingly well for CA, found potential "rivals" must buck up double time!
Around mid July, Little fiasco with the DnT Big Guy... Started This Blog Whooh!! And got to know some people much better... found a confidant... Lost my mind... made some rash choices but all in all... not much. I love my cell group, I really dont know what i would do without all of you! Cecelia, thanks for being so patient with all of us and making time for us, we always make you worry and sick, Paula, thanks for being there, just for being there! Jean, thankies for opening your house week after week and disturbing your family. Joel, for the fun, fan and F.R.I.E.N.D.S! LoL and all those rides home, and for everything! Been friends for dunno how many years liao.. where did the Parry old times go? Hannah, thnx for listening to my crap online. Haz.. and ya lar! And all that ^_^ Darren, even though we dun see you much, we hope to see you MORE!! Gambatte! Alfred, neat year, got a new name! Thanks for taking all our crap hahaz... smile smile, yes ive grown smarter thank you. With effect from 1st Jan our cells will be abit shuffled... Welcome Dilys to our cell!! I know you will be a great contribution to HG2, the best cell in 3a wahaz.
Lots of interesting stuff happened in 2004... but the coolest of all must be that I was handed the biggest responsibility in my entire life.. something I never even dream of... Part of the 2004 Church Camp Commitee!! I want to thank Aaron, XinYi, Alvin and Anna for being so accomodating with all my rubbish and slip ups, and patient and kind and everything else!! And Church Camp 2004, the time I finally went serious about God, for the first time in 6 years... My christian walk just slipped from upper primary and It just went downhill all the way, but during church camp 2004... I had it. 2003 and 2004 was totally majorly messed up, all my years of running had accumulated into a huge mess... life could'nt get any worse. But I place it all in Your hands Lord and now, the future has never seemed brighter. Cos I know my future is in Your hands, all of my hopes and dreams and plans... yes Lord all to you and hepl me notto go back and pick up my burden again.
And then in Zone Camp, Thnkas to all the commitee for planning such a cool camp, I will never forget it and the crowning of your zone idol, Gabriel Han! When You Say Nothing At All!.. excellent, next time, you play I sing lolx I know the song (fully sorta) and Thank You Lord again for giving me the word and the final push.
And then CCIS, from a performer in the parade to a performer escort and position marker. And helping out with everyone on the 19th, I want to thank the Lord for t his golden opportunity that we could reach out to Singapore on such a large scale, and throughout the whole thing, it NEVER rained.. To God be the glory! May the seed that we planted grow and bear fruit, Your ways and thoughts are higher than our's for you are God.
Christmas Eve. more CCIS stuff!! Countdown crowd control... cool stuff... but Shan An got his head whacked open (ouch) no more details here! I thank God that no lasting damage was done and that he is still alive and well, Thank You for Your hand of protection over us!
Then on Christmas day, Ps Peter Chng spoke a powerful message. Christmas 2004 will be a day I will remember forever, I was water baptised on that very day, a new creation... feels great, at first I not sure, but after two clear signs from God I just knew I had to, first is Joshua 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. which I heard on the sunday BEFORE zone camp while im still thinking cos I really scared! Then I said, Lord, one more sign Lord one more. And during Zone camp, Mavis shared about that we should live by FAITH not FEELING, and Fear is a feeling, so I trusted God and went ahead. ^_^
And no sooner had Christmas ended, came Thanksgiving! And the stay over at the "chalet", our Vision for zone 3a for the year 2005, to spend time for God and for Others! Yes! We will work on it! Thats It for the year 2o04 in a nut shell, 2005 will be a big one, cos Im taking my O levels, im a new person, I have changed and everything is different!! IT is like 2:15am tommrrow is VISION SUNDAY!! Combined service at 10:30am must sleep zzz... Till next time!
Quote of the Post:
(Announcement! From now on, there may not be a quote at all! And sometimes it will be song lyrics and such depending on how I feel and now? I'm feeling Jumpy and Happy HaHA!)
If We Belong To Each Other, We belong
Anyplace, Anywhere, Anytime
(Nena feat, Kim Wild - Anyplace, Anywhere, Anytime)
Reflections for the year 2004
2004 was a awesome year. This reflection will be SUPER long so bear with me.
January, the start of a new life AGAIN as a sec 3 express pupil, see everyone else move up to sec 4, and know that I may bever see them again. Even though I do not entirely like these people, it wrenches my heart deep down. Adjusting to new subjects and all... made some new friends, thanks to Monk and gang ^_^ 24th of january, NEVER Forget this date, graduated from S.W.P I will never again, never. I wont turn back and go that way ever again, as long as I live.
Feburary... Re-united with the Youth... You dont know HOW HAPPY I AM... Never again... never again, somewhere I belong, where I am accepted for who I am. Feburary blows in and out nothing big, tensions rise between the teachers and the pupils. I find our class... quite disturbingly... distruptive. I begin to see a bleack future, but nvm gambatte! I hope I can do something... Lee Lin is doing surprisingly normal considering her edge.. warm up maybe? March, the weather begins to kill... did really surprisingly well for CA, found potential "rivals" must buck up double time!
Around mid July, Little fiasco with the DnT Big Guy... Started This Blog Whooh!! And got to know some people much better... found a confidant... Lost my mind... made some rash choices but all in all... not much. I love my cell group, I really dont know what i would do without all of you! Cecelia, thanks for being so patient with all of us and making time for us, we always make you worry and sick, Paula, thanks for being there, just for being there! Jean, thankies for opening your house week after week and disturbing your family. Joel, for the fun, fan and F.R.I.E.N.D.S! LoL and all those rides home, and for everything! Been friends for dunno how many years liao.. where did the Parry old times go? Hannah, thnx for listening to my crap online. Haz.. and ya lar! And all that ^_^ Darren, even though we dun see you much, we hope to see you MORE!! Gambatte! Alfred, neat year, got a new name! Thanks for taking all our crap hahaz... smile smile, yes ive grown smarter thank you. With effect from 1st Jan our cells will be abit shuffled... Welcome Dilys to our cell!! I know you will be a great contribution to HG2, the best cell in 3a wahaz.
Lots of interesting stuff happened in 2004... but the coolest of all must be that I was handed the biggest responsibility in my entire life.. something I never even dream of... Part of the 2004 Church Camp Commitee!! I want to thank Aaron, XinYi, Alvin and Anna for being so accomodating with all my rubbish and slip ups, and patient and kind and everything else!! And Church Camp 2004, the time I finally went serious about God, for the first time in 6 years... My christian walk just slipped from upper primary and It just went downhill all the way, but during church camp 2004... I had it. 2003 and 2004 was totally majorly messed up, all my years of running had accumulated into a huge mess... life could'nt get any worse. But I place it all in Your hands Lord and now, the future has never seemed brighter. Cos I know my future is in Your hands, all of my hopes and dreams and plans... yes Lord all to you and hepl me notto go back and pick up my burden again.
And then in Zone Camp, Thnkas to all the commitee for planning such a cool camp, I will never forget it and the crowning of your zone idol, Gabriel Han! When You Say Nothing At All!.. excellent, next time, you play I sing lolx I know the song (fully sorta) and Thank You Lord again for giving me the word and the final push.
And then CCIS, from a performer in the parade to a performer escort and position marker. And helping out with everyone on the 19th, I want to thank the Lord for t his golden opportunity that we could reach out to Singapore on such a large scale, and throughout the whole thing, it NEVER rained.. To God be the glory! May the seed that we planted grow and bear fruit, Your ways and thoughts are higher than our's for you are God.
Christmas Eve. more CCIS stuff!! Countdown crowd control... cool stuff... but Shan An got his head whacked open (ouch) no more details here! I thank God that no lasting damage was done and that he is still alive and well, Thank You for Your hand of protection over us!
Then on Christmas day, Ps Peter Chng spoke a powerful message. Christmas 2004 will be a day I will remember forever, I was water baptised on that very day, a new creation... feels great, at first I not sure, but after two clear signs from God I just knew I had to, first is Joshua 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. which I heard on the sunday BEFORE zone camp while im still thinking cos I really scared! Then I said, Lord, one more sign Lord one more. And during Zone camp, Mavis shared about that we should live by FAITH not FEELING, and Fear is a feeling, so I trusted God and went ahead. ^_^
And no sooner had Christmas ended, came Thanksgiving! And the stay over at the "chalet", our Vision for zone 3a for the year 2005, to spend time for God and for Others! Yes! We will work on it! Thats It for the year 2o04 in a nut shell, 2005 will be a big one, cos Im taking my O levels, im a new person, I have changed and everything is different!! IT is like 2:15am tommrrow is VISION SUNDAY!! Combined service at 10:30am must sleep zzz... Till next time!
Quote of the Post:
(Announcement! From now on, there may not be a quote at all! And sometimes it will be song lyrics and such depending on how I feel and now? I'm feeling Jumpy and Happy HaHA!)
If We Belong To Each Other, We belong
Anyplace, Anywhere, Anytime
(Nena feat, Kim Wild - Anyplace, Anywhere, Anytime)
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Happy New Year!!!
Whooh! It is 4am or so on the first of january year 2005!!! As per usual spent the last few moments in watchnight service, the entire thing was as per usual, so cool. We the Rangers were involved in the final countdown as in when we count to zero, we will turn off all e lights and throw these lightsticks down with parachutes attached... sounds small, but looks really nice when you are there seeing it ^_^ Then watched performances... the dance group who performed for CCIS did their stint again.. *drool* ahem, and some other stuff, we youth were all called up to do some rap thing, but halfway got pushed out by Joel to stand in front and to block Jean and Anna... but I think Anna dun need to be blocked, she seems fine being in the spotlight...
Got a bunch of approx 9 people down here now, supposed to be watching movie, but now half of them asleep and the other half only stil watching... so im taking the chance to blog, at first we watched Bruce Almighty.. i didnt know it was so long, we didnt even finish it (we switched hlafway cos the ending was boring) and it was already 3:30am, talk about wow... time flies when you are having fun... hehe... now they watching another show, but ive already watched it, so im making good use of my time.. sorta
School reopening, holiday homework, not done at all.... can someone say au lang sye? Sayonara? Ok enough crap, im sweaty, feelinh hot and abit bored. so ill conclude blogging HERE, bai bai
Quote of e post:
Happy New Year!! Woot Woot!!
Got a bunch of approx 9 people down here now, supposed to be watching movie, but now half of them asleep and the other half only stil watching... so im taking the chance to blog, at first we watched Bruce Almighty.. i didnt know it was so long, we didnt even finish it (we switched hlafway cos the ending was boring) and it was already 3:30am, talk about wow... time flies when you are having fun... hehe... now they watching another show, but ive already watched it, so im making good use of my time.. sorta
School reopening, holiday homework, not done at all.... can someone say au lang sye? Sayonara? Ok enough crap, im sweaty, feelinh hot and abit bored. so ill conclude blogging HERE, bai bai
Quote of e post:
Happy New Year!! Woot Woot!!
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