-I so Hate Consequences-

Jc life is good, it is fun, fast paced and slightly (for now, to increase soon) taxing. Lessons, or more accurately lectures have begun and I have by now in these two days plus the orientation, seen Lecture Theaters 1,3,4 and 5. Why not two? Rumors have it (and it is quite true by the amount of assurances I get it is irritating now) in LT 2 there is a grand piano, I so seek to see it, but I digress.

Ive taken quite a few lectures inclusive of GP (horrifying), Chinese (as per usual, hopeless), H1 Math (I know what he's saying at least) and finally for the fun of it, I slipped into a H1 Literature class. It was horrifying. To start off the session we all took a mini quiz to test how much we knew about literature. The results (which I will omit) are appalling. In light of recent events I realised I am woefully inadequate in terms of knowledge of literature's various famous figures and symbols.

Questions on Beowulf, Jane Eyre, William Blake, Adrinne Rich, Shakespearean sonnets (this one I remembered from sec3 thankfully), A Midsummer's Night Dream, Measure for Measure (if you are lost now, dont feel bad, I felt just the same. If you don't help me out will you?) and other various poems, poets, prose, authors and plays and whatnot fle wover my head. Even though I didnt do that badly... 3/6 on the "History of Literature" mcq, 3/5 on the open ended "Name the Author", and finally 2/4 on the "Name the works of Shakespeare" But, I dont feel that I have passed myself. I am disappointed, meaning Im going to delve deeply intop research. My knowledge is woefully inadequate.

How horrible. After all the things I wrote in that letter about being well equipped, all that confidence was drained flat in half an hour. At least the teachers are nice and not taunting like that GP byatch. This is no roadblock, not for now. Tomorrow will be the first H2 literature lecture, lets see if they try to run the same quiz again. It would prove fun, especially in light of English Week, oh yes it will. I'll note that down and look forward to it- btw (if, remember IF) if I make it into a combi with literature, I will automatically become part of the Drama Club. That brings us to our next topic...

Today was CCA open house day! I almost didnt go because *coughcough* thebegammaplannedtoponthewholetwohourthingandgoonanouting *cough* but we went for the open house anyway :) What did I sign up for? Umm this is going to sound VERY dumb.. I joined.... STUDENT COUNCIL! Just kidding =P Haha, but I almost did out of lack of things that interest me, in fact I may still consider. Having only 3 months there at best, why not try something I have never tried before? Step out into the spotlight and take lead. I am abit sick of following incompetence... But who am I to speak when I have never faced down the things they've faced? Once again, I digress...

Oh wait, I'm off point again. I joined Music Society. *deathly silence* *Inward screams* What were you thinking?! You can't do music... you you... wait, What is the Music Society? *ahem* The music society is for people to appreciate, compose and maybe paly a little music, and it is the keyboard *silences the oncoming flood of rants again* We'll see how this turns out, I wanted to try something Ive never tried. Ive shunned music as far as I could because I thought I sucked at it big time, maybe now things have changed. Maybe.

Ive got to drop off now, before I go, here's a song I have stuck in my head for some days :)

[I so Hate Consequences]

And I'm good, good, good to go
And I'm good, good, good to go
I got to get away

Get away from all of my mistakes
And I'm good, good, good to go
And I'm good, good, good to go
I got to get away

Get away from all of my mistakes
So here I sit looking at the traffic lights
The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites
I want to run away I want to ditch my life
Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Consequences
Oh God, don’t make me face up to this
And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let you down
And I don’t want to deal with that

It just now hit me this is more than just a set back
And when you spelled it out, well, I guess I didn’t get that
And every trace of momentum is gone
And this isn’t turning out the way I want

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I spent all last night
Tearing down
Every stoplight
And stop sign in this town
Now I think there might
Be no way to stop me now
I'll get away despite
The fact I’m so weighed down

All of my escapes have been exhausted
I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger
And I know I can't go on like this much longer

When I got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, “I miss you son. Come home”
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love you felt for me was mine
The love I’d wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told so’s
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
I hate these consequences
Because I know that I let you down
Now I don't wanna deal with that
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Signing off!

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