Oh My... I have not blogged in like four days!! Since the day before Sports day to Today, 24th to the 28th... So much has happened! So many many things! Lets start off with Sports day ^_^ No lessons that day as Ms Shim spent the time giving out our O level Acknowledgement slips to confirm our subjects... I still REALLY really want to get rid of D&T... that major thorn in the flesh X_X Anyhow... went and borrowd FF7 from Beng Lee and lugged like 32 (ok 31 books .. i ost book 10!) of SK to lend him hahaz! =P Hope he knows how to handle em XD Sports day was so shoik, helping out the NCC and tended the drinks stations... Oh my those students just SWARMED us be it competitors or just spectators they just kept coming and again and in huge crowds until we eventually erected barriers to create a queue line that kept things orderly for a while... T_T ONLY a while. But overall it was so FUN! And oh yea, blue house won AGAIN wahahaz... we ALWAYS win (What can I say? We sure can run :P)
Then after that, went home... prepared and... Rushed off to Cellgrp! Met Joel at prata shop to WATCH HIM EAT =_= As per usual.... Paula-sensei was late, we had to go ahead X_X My turn to lead IB, came up with something on the spot... really funny not bad at all ^_^ Funny thing happened before Cell began... Dilys, Dilys, You are fitting in well but you REALLY need to warm up to Joel's tatics now that he has got a new... "partner in crime" ^_^ Spent the night Hacking away on my newly acquired FF7... played till I was totally half dead hahaz
Saturday!! Sport Climbing at Keppel Towers, the shop actualyl built the walls in a shop IN the tower so it was air-conditioned ^_^ Theory was easy la... we practically can walk in and pass already because there wasnt the need to test us on climbing but we got to climb for fun and put our theory to the test... I climb WORSE THAN DILYS! T_T too weak...
Met with some peeps to study on Sunday morning in Mac then went for Prayer Meeting... of which I should really make a habit of. Service was abit unconventional cos we quite deviated from the usual flow of events and messed up the timing but it was... different ^_^ In a good way! Then after service... meeting T_T Humongous Disaster! But we wrapped it up later in the night with Kendrick... what will I do without him? ^_^
Monday, the 28th, not only the day of my Geography Common Test and the day Peicai faces Cedar in the Volleyball finals (dont know which kind of competititon i think it is South Zone) But most importantly the O Level 2004 result release date. A day of tears and joy.. but from what I see and the people I bother to ask from it was more tears then joy. And for some it seemed tears would not suffice... and their pain was beyond death. Such is the suffering the teachers wanted us to witness and spur us not to end up like them but 4E being 4E really couldnt be bothered less. I? I spent all day and evening comforting others... remindingthem I have tasted bitter failure too and took it in my stride. They may claim it is not the same but it is similar nevertheless. I cant imagine if I had scraped through 3I and went to 4I.. today I would have also been there... sadness beyond pain beyond feeling.. the numbness of defeat and failure.
The day just passed so fast. The only that imprinted itself on my mind the clearest the whole day is that at this rate, I will too be crying in one year's time. And that my dream is quite un-attainable, not to mention some of my motivation has shriveled up and died off... Im going to lower my aim abit... 7 is really really too low, being abit realistic.. <12 is more like it, 10 to 12.
Todays release of results got me fired and also dampened my spirit a whole lot. Feeling drained and tired even though it wasnt me taking results. I never knew persuading someone that there is still a reason to live is so difficult =x
Oh! Finally, remember your "homework", everyday... Smile Smile! :D It really helps
Before I leave, this song is for all the people who took their O level results today :)
The Middle - Jimmy Eat World
Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own,
so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out orlooked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
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Everything will be alright kaes? No matter how poorly you did or how below expectations it was, this isnt the end of the road for you, or anyone for that matter. Life will have to go on and there will always be a way, be it backtracking, ITE, Poly or JC... There always is a way and everything will be alright, you just need to learn to let go.
Im ending here... drained totally.. why do you continue to ignore me?
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And maybe, some things are that simple... [Simple & Clean - Kingdom Hearts]
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