Because You Live

Hey~ my mom has been hogging the computer for her driving lessons so I can't be online much, so im making use of this precious time I've scraped to blog ^_^ Aren't I so thoughtful to my precious readers? And to let me know you exist, please leave me a sign, like maybe a tag? (HINT HINT!) Haha

Ooh Prelims result all back, not as well as I had planned, then again, I planned kind of high x) The final verdict, L1R4 = 15, L1R5 = 19. The sad thing? Not a single A1, and alot less As then I expected. Here's the breakdown.
EL- A2
EM- B4 (I thought I did so much better...)
SC- B3 (Science, extremely disappointing)
CH- A2 (Combined Humans)
PA- B4 (This is just sad)
DT- C5 (I'll explain leter)
MT- B4 (Fixed for Os)

I never thought I'd have to use Chinese as one of my subjects, ever, odd isn't it? I really believed my maths had improved, between the help I got, the questions I did and questions that continually began to make sense to me, I knew there was an improvement, by a single grade? There is obviously more to be done.

Physics killed me. I expected a 2 at least for science, but being bad in physics blows. A B4 physics and a A2 chemistry adds into a high B3, so close. I might sound a little full of my self if I said I was counting on a one for English and Combined Humanities... PoA was just sad. Id didn't study and this is the result, at least as much as I can remember, I'm sure the Os will not be this easy.

For D&T what can I say? If you've been following the "progress" of my D&T (or lack of progress) you'll figure that my wreck of an artefact will be my downfall. Because of the artefact my folio is pulled down, that accounts for 60%. So when you throw in my A1 theory paper, the grade went way down to C5. You just cannot make it without htat 20% practical. I can no longer get an A for D&T, a A2 would take a 110% for my theory, a B3 would take 93%, I won't even think about counting how much a B4 would take. Bottomline, D&T is out the window.

I had origianlly planned to have at least 14 for my L1R5, a nice mid-range mark (although I have little intention of spending the next two years in brown again) actually I also dont know. Now the only doors are SR and Y, obviously Im taking SR (if not for the locations, it would be... for the location) and for Os I'd plan to get a 10. Considering my score is already 4 with chinese, my plan will now be, EL 1, CH 1, EM 2, SC 1, PoA 1. Wow, Id be hard pressed =.=

Enough talking about schoool. Friday was cool, went for suishi buffet with some 4F people :) So called to celebrate the end of prelims. Then later that night zone Gathering, haha I know I asked for charades but I never expected a time attack version! intresting but the timing kind of kills it a little.

Sunday, hmmz, CET is becoming more and more complicated, quite "chim" = slightly troublesome to understand. But overall its ok, quite fun ^_^ its about the environment too you know? The people, the atmosphere. But must stop doodling on the notes, talk less and listen more heehee.

Found a cool song, actually make it two cool songs. Ill post em up here (wow this entry is turning kind of long dont you think?)

I Don't Wanna Be
Gavin Degraw

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been tryin to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
am i the only one to notice
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please
if you're not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave

I came from the mountains
the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay and stone
and now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I DONT WANT TO BE...
I DONT WANT TO BE...
I DONT WANT TO BE.... ANYTHING OTHER THAN..
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Superman - Its not easy to be me
Five for Fighting

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me
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I love these superman themed songs. Looking forward to next week. My birthday on the 14th! Haha. And start of exam break. Im excited. Yet worried. In my life there are so many things I cannot place for sure. But Im too worried to place them where they should go. Even though I know I should. Ok, typing in short sentences is not working for me, haha, it is more like Dilys's blogging style, tried tested and trashed, its continusous writing for me without restraint on the use of the comma, and the rare use of a fullstop x)

Ok ok, I have a urgent testi to write, ciao!

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