Shards

You live each day in a daze. You know nothing, just put one foot before the other and take things the way they come. Everything can be remedied at the last minute, things will turn out fine in the end, they always do, or so you say. What knowledge, what wisdom? What direction, what purpose? You know the cause, you know the cure, you know the consequences. You can't be bothered some say, others think its too late. You claim to want to change desperately, over the course of nine years, nothing has changed. You have just learnt to make it look as though things are different, to fool the people around you that you are improving, that you are fine. You try to act normal, and come off wierd. You think you are trying, your bluff is very obvious. You say there is nothing you can do, you know you just dont want to do it. You keep wishing for it to end, you fear what is to come. You promise big things, and your words are all that echo around in the end. Your life is in shambles, you think no one sees, you think no one bothers, well they dont. You say you are and want to be strong, you're as much a coward as ever. You think and come to the conclusion it is pride, in fact you dont know anything at all. You stop yourself and hesitate, can this continue?

I smash the mirror.

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