Monday, July 10, 2006

God Knows

Two weeks since ive updated, really I have no idea where my time went at all. After mid years and now with this and that. So much going on and so much to do. PW EoM, PW survey, Maths Tutorial, History Essays (my gosh three complete ones), course syllabus for the Photo traning and other things I cannot think of. Mad mad mad mad. Took another quiz (kind of) this time, it is a handwriting analysis.

******* The Analysis Starts Here *******

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Chang Xiang has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Chang Xiang fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Chang Xiang has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Chang Xiang seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Chang Xiang seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

Something is incomplete in Chang Xiang's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption.

Chang Xiang will take action on his thoughts. He is positive that his views are correct for him. He has the ability to seem as if he is positively correct when answering a question, even if he does not have the slightest idea of the answer. Chang Xiang displays a self-confidence that makes everyone else sure he is correct. He is positive of his own views, but not necessarily stubborn.

Chang Xiang's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Chang Xiang that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Chang Xiang also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Chang Xiang is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Chang Xiang's self-concept is artificially low. Chang Xiang will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Chang Xiang to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Chang Xiang is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Chang Xiang is a cumulative and procedural thinker. He likes to have all the facts before making a decision. He thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. His thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Chang Xiang learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once he has learned new material, and understood it, he won't forget. Chang Xiang is a methodical thinker, therefore he is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, he often loses to rapid thinking people because he is thinking thirty minutes later about what he should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate. He may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once he gets it, he can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, he can handle it better than most.

Chang Xiang will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

Chang Xiang will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Chang Xiang believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride.

Chang Xiang uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Chang Xiang does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise. Chang Xiang will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally. Chang Xiang is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Chang Xiang doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
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A few things to contradict.

1) I do not have a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

2) I still cant stand jobs with excessive repetition... its boring!

3) The passage kind of contradicts itself, here "Chang Xiang displays a self-confidence that makes everyone else sure he is correct." but later on "Chang Xiang's true self-image is unreasonably low." So where did the high self confidence come in?

4) I dont think Ive had unhealthy relationships in the past (aside from those people on my "to murder in cold blood in future" list) hell I dont think Ive had any relationships in the past. Friendship wise or other.

Such a fun test dont you think? Once again you get the "is some fellar stalking me to get quiz results?" feeling. I feel an innate urge to take another test and go look for something inattainable.

The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi is over, and I managed to glean 2 songs from ep12. Remember "God Knows" and "Lost my Music"? They are great, really love them, those two plus the OP and ED with NEXT LEVEL can keep me high all day long. Of course Running after You, Tell the World and Take it All achieves the same result much better-- Loving the W700, it is now my camera, phone and mp3 player lol, guess I need to go save up to buy a large (2GB maybe) memory stick.

Jean gets a S,S,S,S,U for mid years, what will I get? A U for history im quite sure of that. But the rest is uncertain, a pass is E, i think ill manage a E for econs and math. Agh this is so deadening, good thing CET was managing your STRESS lol-- I NEED to go FAR AWAY few years BACK would be OK I just NEED to UNWIND in my time machine...

Quote of e Post:
Even though I want to fulfill my wish, God Knows everything...

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