SOS Brigade

Wow, It has been 22 days since I last mnade an entry. Total madness, im going mad too. I guess blogging is an outlet so I don't get too crazy all at one time... Yes holidays, not really. SO much happened.

First, after CSSP camp, Model UN :) Now THAT was wickedly fun. Japan was a little too quiet for the liking of the U S of A. India Pwned everyone on our side and managed to gather quite the following too. The African bloc was an interesting bunch, seriously and Autria provided no little entertainment. We know how fun it is now, do hope we can go again... and this time actually say more then we did ^_^

Followed by week three of lessons and stuff, I can't really remember, haziness clouds alot of this holiday. Finally week 4, the week just before school reopens and mid year fever takes over... Japan WHEE!! It was what I expected and more although I didn't manage to see or find some of the things I was looking for, heel, that is one awesome experience. But you can really get sick of japanese food. Pics and stuff MAY come... in time to come, a long time to come.

Now its back to school and exam fever is in full swing- I have already thrown History out the window, my gosh... choosing 2 out of 3 essay questions I only manged to write 2 pages for one and 3 pages for the other, both fail to hit the minimum 4 sides requirement... felt so much like dying there and then after the paper was over, someone kill me!

GP was quite ok, and as per usual, it is fun to do GP, but in the hall next to Crystal and behind Emmanuel... its pressuring, their presence, two of the greater minds in the class. *gulp* Im suffocated, I cant walk near them..

My mid years are screwed up. No motivation to study.

On lighter notes, quizzes ^_^

You scored as Blue. Your heart is blue. You are a very calm and relaxed person. You are very caring and like helping others. You're grateful for what you have in life, even if it's not perfect. People love you for who you are, don\'t ever change that- it's what makes you the great person that you are. Blue 75% Red 68% White 61% Green 50% Black 36% Yellow 29% Pink 21% Orange 21% Purple 18% ~What colour is your heart?~ created with QuizFarm.com

Okay... I was expecting black... oh well this is cool too, I used to love this answer
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You scored as Existentialism. Your life is guided by the concept of Existentialism: You choose the meaning and purpose of your life. ?Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.? ?It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.? --Jean-Paul Sartre ?It is man's natural sickness to believe that he possesses the Truth.? --Blaise Pascal More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page... Existentialism 100% Justice (Fairness) 90% Kantianism 70% Divine Command 65% Hedonism 55% Utilitarianism 50% Strong Egoism 35% Apathy 30% Nihilism 10% What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03) created with QuizFarm.com

Really?! I thought I was highly law abiding and happy to be a follower...
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You scored as The world hates me goth. Everyone in the world hates you, get use to it. The world hates me goth 83% Suicidle Goth 33% I hate the world goth 17% Blood-Sucking Goth 0% WHAT type of goth are you??(please rate and coment) created with QuizFarm.com

Okay... this heavily depends on many factors, I thought I left that in the past...

Im over this now.

Oh, I got my new phone (finally) a spanking Ericsson W700- yeap a walkman phone, just what I need now that my #$%@ Zen Micro is dead on arrival and clearly not delivering... but It only has a 256k memory stick... ah well Its pwns with a 2 megapixel camera, mp3 player, and all the other nifty functions other phone like it has. I could have gotten a 3G phone, but I decided against it. At least until 3G is more advanced and relevant, I'll stay away from that. Need to figure out my bluetooth first lol Im a tech n00b.

Time Machine - by The Click Five

Oh what mess
You've got the best of my heart
It broke and now it's just a joke
Cause you're moving right along
I'm still here and you're gone
Oh what a shame
You know I didnt mean for the winds to change
Won't ever be the same
Cause the kisses that you blew
Could never ever move

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

Hey you
Ya i'm talking to you
You lost the love in bed
And now it's just dead
Cause it didn't mean a thing
Were you waiting for a ring
Hey it's a game
And ain't it a shame that it's just a show
I thought that this was love
But I can't be fooled again
I'm cryin' out
But I can't give in

You need some time by yourself
Without anybody else
You just need to unwind
In your time machine
You need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
You just need to unwind
In your time machine

All the things that we could change
(things that we could change)
Now we'll never be the same

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

By Myself
I don't need anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
In my time machine

I love this song, thanks a billion to Norman for the introduction. I owe you man.

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I need to go far away, few years back would be ok

Clock Over

Hey all, busy, just realised how little time I have left of this blasted holiday... I might have to do tutorials on the plane T.T Its like so busy with work and all- I don't know hot to fit it all into my time but somehow it will have to work out.

My eyes are killing me! Tonight's MUTS ("movie under the stars" or more accurately, a documentary) totally killed my eyes in a 4 hour long history session on the cold war... Im like so tired now zZzZ although I didn't do any work per say.

tomorrow I have to get to somerset, eat lunch then run back to school for the MUTS... and i haven't packed my stuff for SMUN. Can someone shoot me in the head or something? Thanks-

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Make the World Revolve around You- It's more Fun to think That Way

Community Safety and Security Programme

Oh well shoot me if Ive been in some wierd mood the past few weeks. Ive read back on my posts and I sound like a girl =.=U No offence to girls. CSSP camp was great- the apparent lack of focus and planning melted (ok so we kind of just got used to the disorder) away as we began to work together. But the campers were a byatch to handle, Im so glad sometimes Im not a group facilitator- those kids will drive me nuts I could eat them with raw celery and unsweetened oatmeal flavoured with parsley (the foodstuff i hate the most.. kind of)

I wotn go day by day as I have already done that but I loved it :P Although Im not so sure Id right away volunteer to take up a exco slot like those other two girls did (Elaine and someone else... cant remember her name)

I was going to blog on something but I totally forgot what -haha- right *ahem* ill blog some other time when I remember.

OH! SMUN coming so soon, in 2 days, Ive not packed and we have no blazers... dang... Yew are goinf to hear bout this from me...

Oh and I got this, very cool, I got what I wanted, kind of without "cheating"


Which Naruto Character Are You?
Test by naruto - kun.com

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Ive become so slack I cant feel my book...

Back to Back

The past 4 days have been a blur. Life now here, at home, im not sure if I even really went to Old Police Academy, facilitated a camp, got a commendation, or was it just a dream? How could I lose that feeling, I loved it, away from home, feeling important, feeling needed.

I guess- working with people... is/can be, fun. So sweet, and so cold warm. Feeling all lonely and down now. The camp was great, even though my role caused me to miss the highest highlight of the camp- and it was a tiring, slightly thankless role, it wasn't glamorous, it was a inside background job. The place was old and run down, the bunks itched and stank, the toilets were barely habitable, the campers were no piece of cake to handle and the clearing up was mad. I loved it, every hour of it.

This song just came back to me. Im not going to cry.

朋友

演唱:周华健

这些年一个人
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽

真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我
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It's true isnt it? A part and parcel of life? Friends- what are they? Ive never known...

I cant imagine the term and concept of future. Of growing up to become recognised by community as an adult. To serve the nation in the Army. To have to make every decision, every choice on your own- to have all the freedom you've always wanted, but not knowing what to do with it. Sounds very pathetic isn't it? But no one reads this anyhow so its all the same.

My tagboard died on me so Ive put a new one up, therefore it is totally blank. I'll wait, and ill see. No one will post, and I'll have to put something up just to prevent flooble from disabling an inactive board. Its the pits.

I cant sleep. I cant focus. Just listening to that song on repeat, something is stirring in me I haven't felt for some time. It is so sad, yet enjoyable. Leave me be- unless, you know what the song is talking about...

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