A'ch du

Ole! GP was fun to do, I dont know if ill do well for sure but it was fun to write at very least.

Im ponned history mock prelim. Wth are we haaving a mock exam of a mock exam? pfft.

Heacahce. Been having them all week long. chiao.

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You know what you doing.

Bad Luck

Boo its been a rather unlucky week D:

Not only has it been busy, and I cracked my watch. And none of the oldies went for the gathering on Saturday. And I've been suffering horrible horrible headaches all week long.

There's no transport to Church today. Its rare that I'm at home on a Sunday morning. First time in... I cant even remember when the last time was! I'll have to take bus for Youth later. And there's history presentation. sigh.

Boo- I cant even remember what I wanted to blog about anymore.

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Close your eyes give me your hand

B&G

I had no idea I could be so entertained by the stupid things on channel 5. Really, being able to be at home in the mornings watching TV is fabulously new. (Even on holidays I wake up near 12pm so yea)

Two shows I love watching are The Ellen DeGeneres Show and Beauty and the Geek. The Ellen Show is your usual talk-show, without all the normalcy. Better then that other daytime talk show - whats it called again? Oh yes the Oprah show - I think. She's not funny as much as she is as lame as the average Singaporean student. And that means we can totally understand her quirks and jokes- even if sometimes the celebs on the show can't ;)

As for Beauty and the Geek, If I thought I was geeky, these guys totally win me. You have people who own 25,000 comic books, got a perfect score on their SATS, graduated from Harvard, master of super mario games, plays in the Star Wars band, is a hardcore trekker- no not a hiker thing, a star trek fan and more. These hopeless guys super geeks are thrown headfirst into the deep end. 8 gorgeous girls and 8 geeky guys. 8 incredibly mismatched pairs have to battle it out for the top prize, survive each week to avoid the elimination room. The girls are not astounding but do look quite fabulous- cheerleaders, pageant winners and the like, did I mention they're quite ditzy? Some can't spell Wednesday, some say they're really smart with "IQ like about 500". The guy's challenges are mostly physical and social, work out, dress up, try to get a girl's number. Now these people have rarely if ever seen the light of day aside from their rooms, computers and comic cons. The girl's challenges are much more interesting. Study about radio waves and assemble a walkie talkie, learn how to do things with a computer, read books and the like_ its very entertaining :) And when they get drunk all the bitching come out- and once in a while, we might actually find true love in that muddled mix.

So watch out for these shows (if you ever get the chance to watch them) I assure you any logical human would find it interesting. Som-pa.

Oh wow, an entire ebil free post.

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Host: Ladies, this is a tool chest, it contains, shocker, tools.
Nadia: What are tools?
Cecille: What's shocker?

Monster

So you're human too.

Its about time your pedestal came crumbling down.

I'll enjoy your melancholy.

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Battle not with monsters
lest ye become a monster
and if you gaze into the abyss
the abyss gazes into you.

Butterflies of Hope, Legacies of Love

Just returned from Nat day celebration at school. Yes, at 9pm. Someone had a great idea to start the concert at 6pm. It was quite fun if not for the fact I was late (overslept till 6pm, got there only at 6.30pm) and I had a headache throughout (which was supposed to go away after my nap) not to mention I was stuck behind this nice tall guy. (slightly shorter then qx, but tall enough to cover my field of vision when I sit down) So I had to stand. For more then two hours. I'm not complaining- it was worth it.

For a few seconds, it was like orientation all over again. And SRJC was home to me.

I really miss the past.

Can misery give you a headache? Feels more like a fever. I haven't been bothered enough to check my temperature.

I could have checked and if its a fever I'd skip the celebration. But then I'd be letting the school and the teachers down.

Miserable, utterly miserable. I have a song for everyone. here.

I need to talk to someone who knows everything.

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Minutes turn to hours, and the hours to days
Seems it's been forever that I've felt this way

Bleed it Out

"Hey sis! Wat's up? Haha. Hope u're doing well..if the staring still continues tell me i will go talk 2 e person. HAHA!"

Yes I'm staring. Brilliant. Especially when I'm beginning to try to give it up. Whats with this~ am I some dangerous creature that everyone has to try to keep locked up.

Figures. I really can't be bothered anymore.

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F**k this hurts, I won't lie
Doesn't matter how hard I try
Half the words don't mean a thing
And I know that I won't be satisfied

Alone

Alones - Aqua Timez
Your fragile, folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone
It's okay to smile... for yourself

That lonely feeling keeps creeping up on me
A single candle burns inside
There shouldn't be an expensive chandelier in a wild place like this

Can i really bury it all with empty words?
I don't even know anymore...

As long as we can swim freely in our dreams
we wont need that sky anymore
Even if you can't let go of the past,
I'll still be there to meet you tomorrow

Your fragile, folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone
It's okay to smile... for yourself
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Its so indulgent. Thinking its me, and all me. Enjoying the painful tension, like I can no longer live without the attention. Those eyes aren't nothing that can see me but its those eyes that are fearful looking through me. I tried and did so much to be a monster, and in the end I succeeded via a blunder. Its a conscious move not to stray a blip but still it seems like I've triggered it. I've not done a thing to you but why you acting like I just happened to?

By myself (myself)
I ask, why (myself)
I can't rely on myself (myself)
I ask, why
But in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself
In my mind I find

I can't hold on
(to what I want when I'm stretched so thin)
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
(to anything watching everything spin)
With thoughts of failure sinking in.

Reality warped into insanity. Nothing is real anymore to me. I've got all the actions of life down pat but when it comes to show what have I left? Theres nothing here there wont be nothing there and my heart and my brain linked by just thin air- if what I think is what I'd do then you cant be here cos you'll be dead too.

Can't someone, isn't there a way to reformat one's mind? With a warped worldview- nothing will ever be normal to me again.

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Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I