Figure since I'm so far gone, oceans away,
I can lay my saber down today.
I miss the words I love
the words, you did not say.
I miss the kiss you never gave away.
There goes the sun, oceans away
And days die young when you're gone and you're gone
There goes the sun, oceans away
And leaves the day for someone else
Honestly I thought that we could make it all the way,
Barefoot on beaches dancing against the gray.
But stone by stone the castle crumbled to the ground,
I stood and stared as you started to fall into the waves.
There goes the sun, oceans away
And days die young when you're gone and you're gone
There goes the sun, oceans away
And leaves the day for someone else
Here's to the man of your dreams.
I take it all in a box and make my way down to the shore,
Throw it in and begin to leave it to the waves.
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I've lost count the number of times I've posted this but still it is and will continue to be one of my favorite songs. Their sound has changed a lot since then, but I still enjoy their newest compilation. Well most of it, I just cannot get into Never Say Never- which was the only popular one since it was in Transformers 2- but I lump it :(
Absolute, Say When, Happiness, Enough for Now, Where the Story Ends <3
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
Tag Farce 4
I HATE the storyline battles in TF4, not only is your partner deliberately weak and the opponents fitted with the epitome of broken (just look at Jack Atlus's deck 04!) your partner's AI is epic fail. Sooo frustrated, forget it- im going to go SLEEP and try again tomorrow on the train. Pfft, if only Aki wasn't worth it- but she is >.< Stupid Goyo guardian which is only lv6 but has the power of a lv8. Gragghhh.
Love the game, hate the AI. Artificial Idiocy.
Love the game, hate the AI. Artificial Idiocy.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Lifeheck
10 simple ways to save yourself from messing up your life
1. Stop taking so much notice of how you feel. How you feel is how you feel.
It’ll pass soon. What you’re thinking is what you’re thinking. It’ll go too. Tell yourself that whatever you feel, you feel; whatever you think, you think. Since you can’t stop yourself thinking, or prevent emotions from arising in your mind, it makes no sense to be proud or ashamed of either. You didn’t cause them. Only your actions are directly under your control. They’re the only proper cause of pleasure or shame.
2. Let go of worrying. It often makes things worse.
The more you think about something bad, the more likely it is to happen. When you’re hair-trigger primed to notice the first sign of trouble, you’ll surely find something close enough to convince yourself it’s come.
3. Ease up on the internal life commentary.
If you want to be happy, stop telling yourself you’re miserable. People are always telling themselves how they feel, what they’re thinking, what others feel about them, what this or that event really means. Most of it’s imagination. The rest is equal parts lies and misunderstandings. You have only the most limited understanding of what others feel about you. Usually they’re no better informed on the subject; and they care about it far less than you do. You have no way of knowing what this or that event really means. Whatever you tell yourself will be make-believe.
4. Take no notice of your inner critic.
Judging yourself is pointless. Judging others is half-witted. Whatever you achieve, someone else will always do better. However bad you are, others are worse. Since you can tell neither what’s best nor what’s worst, how can you place yourself correctly between them? Judging others is foolish since you cannot know all the facts, cannot create a reliable or objective scale, have no means of knowing whether your criteria match anyone else’s, and cannot have more than a limited and extremely partial view of the other person. Who cares about your opinion anyway?
5. Give up on feeling guilty.
Guilt changes nothing. It may make you feel you’re accepting responsibility, but it can’t produce anything new in your life. If you feel guilty about something you’ve done, either do something to put it right or accept you screwed up and try not to do so again. Then let it go. If you’re feeling guilty about what someone else did, see a psychiatrist. That’s insane.
6. Stop being concerned what the rest of the world says about you.
Nasty people can’t make you mad. Nice people can’t make you happy. Events or people are simply events or people. They can’t make you anything. You have to do that for yourself. Whatever emotions arise in you as a result of external events, they’re powerless until you pick them up and decide to act on them. Besides, most people are far too busy thinking about themselves (and worry what you are are thinking and saying about them) to be concerned about you.
7. Stop keeping score.
Numbers are just numbers. They don’t have mystical powers. Because something is expressed as a number, a ratio or any other numerical pattern doesn’t mean it’s true. Plenty of lovingly calculated business indicators are irrelevant, gibberish, nonsensical, or just plain wrong. If you don’t understand it, or it’s telling you something bizarre, ignore it. There’s nothing scientific about relying on false data. Nor anything useful about charting your life by numbers that were silly in the first place.
8. Don’t be concerned that your life and career aren’t working out the way you planned.
The closer you stick to any plan, the quicker you’ll go wrong. The world changes constantly. However carefully you analyzed the situation when you made the plan, if it’s more than a few days old, things will already be different. After a month, they’ll be very different. After a year, virtually nothing will be the same as it was when you started. Planning is only useful as a discipline to force people to think carefully about what they know and what they don’t. Once you start, throw the plan away and keep your eyes on reality.
9. Don’t let others use you to avoid being responsible for their own decisions.
To hold yourself responsible for someone else’s success and happiness demeans them and proves you’ve lost the plot. It’s their life. They have to live it. You can’t do it for them; nor can you stop them from messing it up if they’re determined to do so. The job of a supervisor is to help and supervise. Only control-freaks and some others with a less serious mental disability fail to understand this.
10. Don’t worry about about your personality.
You don’t really have one. Personality, like ego, is a concept invented by your mind. It doesn’t exist in the real world. Personality is a word for the general impression that you give through your words and actions. If your personality isn’t likeable today, don’t worry. You can always change it, so long as you allow yourself to do so. What fixes someone’s personality in one place is a determined effort on their part—usually through continually telling themselves they’re this or that kind of person and acting on what they say. If you don’t like the way you are, make yourself different. You’re the only person who’s standing in your way.
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Really? Comments?
1. Stop taking so much notice of how you feel. How you feel is how you feel.
It’ll pass soon. What you’re thinking is what you’re thinking. It’ll go too. Tell yourself that whatever you feel, you feel; whatever you think, you think. Since you can’t stop yourself thinking, or prevent emotions from arising in your mind, it makes no sense to be proud or ashamed of either. You didn’t cause them. Only your actions are directly under your control. They’re the only proper cause of pleasure or shame.
2. Let go of worrying. It often makes things worse.
The more you think about something bad, the more likely it is to happen. When you’re hair-trigger primed to notice the first sign of trouble, you’ll surely find something close enough to convince yourself it’s come.
3. Ease up on the internal life commentary.
If you want to be happy, stop telling yourself you’re miserable. People are always telling themselves how they feel, what they’re thinking, what others feel about them, what this or that event really means. Most of it’s imagination. The rest is equal parts lies and misunderstandings. You have only the most limited understanding of what others feel about you. Usually they’re no better informed on the subject; and they care about it far less than you do. You have no way of knowing what this or that event really means. Whatever you tell yourself will be make-believe.
4. Take no notice of your inner critic.
Judging yourself is pointless. Judging others is half-witted. Whatever you achieve, someone else will always do better. However bad you are, others are worse. Since you can tell neither what’s best nor what’s worst, how can you place yourself correctly between them? Judging others is foolish since you cannot know all the facts, cannot create a reliable or objective scale, have no means of knowing whether your criteria match anyone else’s, and cannot have more than a limited and extremely partial view of the other person. Who cares about your opinion anyway?
5. Give up on feeling guilty.
Guilt changes nothing. It may make you feel you’re accepting responsibility, but it can’t produce anything new in your life. If you feel guilty about something you’ve done, either do something to put it right or accept you screwed up and try not to do so again. Then let it go. If you’re feeling guilty about what someone else did, see a psychiatrist. That’s insane.
6. Stop being concerned what the rest of the world says about you.
Nasty people can’t make you mad. Nice people can’t make you happy. Events or people are simply events or people. They can’t make you anything. You have to do that for yourself. Whatever emotions arise in you as a result of external events, they’re powerless until you pick them up and decide to act on them. Besides, most people are far too busy thinking about themselves (and worry what you are are thinking and saying about them) to be concerned about you.
7. Stop keeping score.
Numbers are just numbers. They don’t have mystical powers. Because something is expressed as a number, a ratio or any other numerical pattern doesn’t mean it’s true. Plenty of lovingly calculated business indicators are irrelevant, gibberish, nonsensical, or just plain wrong. If you don’t understand it, or it’s telling you something bizarre, ignore it. There’s nothing scientific about relying on false data. Nor anything useful about charting your life by numbers that were silly in the first place.
8. Don’t be concerned that your life and career aren’t working out the way you planned.
The closer you stick to any plan, the quicker you’ll go wrong. The world changes constantly. However carefully you analyzed the situation when you made the plan, if it’s more than a few days old, things will already be different. After a month, they’ll be very different. After a year, virtually nothing will be the same as it was when you started. Planning is only useful as a discipline to force people to think carefully about what they know and what they don’t. Once you start, throw the plan away and keep your eyes on reality.
9. Don’t let others use you to avoid being responsible for their own decisions.
To hold yourself responsible for someone else’s success and happiness demeans them and proves you’ve lost the plot. It’s their life. They have to live it. You can’t do it for them; nor can you stop them from messing it up if they’re determined to do so. The job of a supervisor is to help and supervise. Only control-freaks and some others with a less serious mental disability fail to understand this.
10. Don’t worry about about your personality.
You don’t really have one. Personality, like ego, is a concept invented by your mind. It doesn’t exist in the real world. Personality is a word for the general impression that you give through your words and actions. If your personality isn’t likeable today, don’t worry. You can always change it, so long as you allow yourself to do so. What fixes someone’s personality in one place is a determined effort on their part—usually through continually telling themselves they’re this or that kind of person and acting on what they say. If you don’t like the way you are, make yourself different. You’re the only person who’s standing in your way.
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Really? Comments?
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
A post in which I talk about something only I read about
I so so SO want to watch the YGO 10th Anniversary movie :( Yugi is back but more importantly, Judai is back! Super Fusion- bonds transcending time, the heroes for all 3 series come together to combat a common threat from the future! Magician beats + Warrior toolbox / Fusion toolbox + Synchro turbo :3 all delicious, can't wait to see what new tricks each of the old characters have.
Black Magician, Neos and Stardust have their work cut out for them- the "signature" creature keeps getting better and better. I mean sure black magic curtain, thousand knives~ then we move on to Neos. What the hell happened to now making broken things? Neos force, Oversoul, Force of Neos! Then stardust, with starlight road, assault mode, majestic star dragon and and umm ok no DIRECT support but it has crazy pseudo-support like tuners that special summon its own material and generally all normal synchro support. Not to mention Stardust is actually a big threat in play as a beater, with evasion and the best thing? It is special summoned by pure virtue of it being a synchro monster. Brilliant.
Its been so long so I am going to rant here like the yugioh otaku I am.
5Ds isn't a great storyline series, but it is an amazing card gameplay series. GX was a great storyline series with a little too much filler but the gameplay at times was how to say- flexible to suit story needs. Lets not mention the original ygo series when we talk about gameplay, they made all the rules on their own out of thin air. GX gave us actual powerful and playable character cards that have lasted the test of time like Stratos, Ground Mole, dandylion, Cyber Dragon and even LNDD to mention a few from both the anime and manga whereas 5Ds have given us broken, unadulterated win in the form of synchros. Stardust, Goyo Guardian, Black Rose Dragon and Thought rule archfiend to mention a few, non synchro wise they gave us the Black Feather archtype, Deformers and an entirely new subtype- the psychics. The duels make more sense then the previous series whose characters used some really crappy cards just for the sake of staying in character- or in theme. The decks the 5Ds characters use and build are far more well suited to today's meta and climate- many of the the cards and combos presented are not only effective and simple but practical to actual field use!
As much as I loved Judai's fusion pulling stunts I adore Yusei's dueling tricks. He gets out of tight scrapes really well without the use of overly strange cards (Alright there are one or two really odd anime only cards that are so situational it wouldn't be worth the paper it would be printed on) and gets suitable beaten up. True the god draw element is still there especially when he topdecks in the early episodes, that draw and grin always gets to me- kind of how Judai's classic move is the field-less bubbleman into handless Hope of Fifth into cocoon party into contact into contact fusion, contact out and miracle contact ftw. Way too far fetched- especially when we begin to throw in the idea that Super Fusion allows him to take material from BOTH sides of the field. Nevertheless that was how Rainbow neos, Neos wiseman and many of his Evil heroes were created. Did I neglect to mention Judai has the most different deck types of all three antagonists? He started out with a vanilla E-Hero fusion beatdown then changed gear into a E-hero fusion toolbox, after which he swapped out for a Neo-spacian toolbox and then a contact fusion turbo deck- which he swapped out totally again as Haou Judai for a evil hero beatdown deck that became a variation of his Heroes toolbox with BOTH E-heroes and Neo-spacians. Yugi only went from Warrior and magician beatdown to Magician toolbox with Orisis support turbo.
Swoon. Haha I can really get into it when talking about something no one else cares to hear about. Sigh- if only the world REALLY were run by a childrens card game. Duel academia would L-O-V-E me and I'd definitely enjoy being a Obelisk Blue student. Oh well.
Makemagic is an addictive song, as the theme song of the 10th Anni movie it lives up to its pump and beat but after looking for the translation to its lyrics I begin to doubt. Are you SURE this is the theme song for a shonen anime movie feature? I'll let the fans decide, since I can't understand the song in its natural form I'll just enjoy the feel and not think about what the words I'm rocking to mean. Man those meanings are a pump beater.
Looking forward to Tag Force 5 if there is going to be one. For now I'll be milking Tag Force 4 for all its worth.
Black Magician, Neos and Stardust have their work cut out for them- the "signature" creature keeps getting better and better. I mean sure black magic curtain, thousand knives~ then we move on to Neos. What the hell happened to now making broken things? Neos force, Oversoul, Force of Neos! Then stardust, with starlight road, assault mode, majestic star dragon and and umm ok no DIRECT support but it has crazy pseudo-support like tuners that special summon its own material and generally all normal synchro support. Not to mention Stardust is actually a big threat in play as a beater, with evasion and the best thing? It is special summoned by pure virtue of it being a synchro monster. Brilliant.
Its been so long so I am going to rant here like the yugioh otaku I am.
5Ds isn't a great storyline series, but it is an amazing card gameplay series. GX was a great storyline series with a little too much filler but the gameplay at times was how to say- flexible to suit story needs. Lets not mention the original ygo series when we talk about gameplay, they made all the rules on their own out of thin air. GX gave us actual powerful and playable character cards that have lasted the test of time like Stratos, Ground Mole, dandylion, Cyber Dragon and even LNDD to mention a few from both the anime and manga whereas 5Ds have given us broken, unadulterated win in the form of synchros. Stardust, Goyo Guardian, Black Rose Dragon and Thought rule archfiend to mention a few, non synchro wise they gave us the Black Feather archtype, Deformers and an entirely new subtype- the psychics. The duels make more sense then the previous series whose characters used some really crappy cards just for the sake of staying in character- or in theme. The decks the 5Ds characters use and build are far more well suited to today's meta and climate- many of the the cards and combos presented are not only effective and simple but practical to actual field use!
As much as I loved Judai's fusion pulling stunts I adore Yusei's dueling tricks. He gets out of tight scrapes really well without the use of overly strange cards (Alright there are one or two really odd anime only cards that are so situational it wouldn't be worth the paper it would be printed on) and gets suitable beaten up. True the god draw element is still there especially when he topdecks in the early episodes, that draw and grin always gets to me- kind of how Judai's classic move is the field-less bubbleman into handless Hope of Fifth into cocoon party into contact into contact fusion, contact out and miracle contact ftw. Way too far fetched- especially when we begin to throw in the idea that Super Fusion allows him to take material from BOTH sides of the field. Nevertheless that was how Rainbow neos, Neos wiseman and many of his Evil heroes were created. Did I neglect to mention Judai has the most different deck types of all three antagonists? He started out with a vanilla E-Hero fusion beatdown then changed gear into a E-hero fusion toolbox, after which he swapped out for a Neo-spacian toolbox and then a contact fusion turbo deck- which he swapped out totally again as Haou Judai for a evil hero beatdown deck that became a variation of his Heroes toolbox with BOTH E-heroes and Neo-spacians. Yugi only went from Warrior and magician beatdown to Magician toolbox with Orisis support turbo.
Swoon. Haha I can really get into it when talking about something no one else cares to hear about. Sigh- if only the world REALLY were run by a childrens card game. Duel academia would L-O-V-E me and I'd definitely enjoy being a Obelisk Blue student. Oh well.
Makemagic is an addictive song, as the theme song of the 10th Anni movie it lives up to its pump and beat but after looking for the translation to its lyrics I begin to doubt. Are you SURE this is the theme song for a shonen anime movie feature? I'll let the fans decide, since I can't understand the song in its natural form I'll just enjoy the feel and not think about what the words I'm rocking to mean. Man those meanings are a pump beater.
Looking forward to Tag Force 5 if there is going to be one. For now I'll be milking Tag Force 4 for all its worth.
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Empty Apartment
Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down
As I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes
You forget where the heart is
Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening
Now, can't you see something's missing
You forget where the heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life?
What's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
It's okay
It's okay
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My song of the week.
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down
As I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes
You forget where the heart is
Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening
Now, can't you see something's missing
You forget where the heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life?
What's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
It's okay
It's okay
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My song of the week.
Monday, February 01, 2010
Hope vs Wish
Just remembered something from watchnight methinks.
To wish is merely to imagine something inconcieveable happening, but to HOPE is a state loaded with an expectation of a future development.
Truly, no more wishing.
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To wish is merely to imagine something inconcieveable happening, but to HOPE is a state loaded with an expectation of a future development.
Truly, no more wishing.
- Posted using BlogPress from my iTouch
Simply unclear
I suppose everyone has thought themselves uniquely brilliant at one point or other in their youth. Yet daily now I see those illusions debunked and refuted. In each cryptic line and dispairing tone. Maybe I'm seeing the ghost of me that isn't present in these lives yet it is unsettling. We are aren't that different, yet unique enough to draw blanks upon scrutiny.
These lives, these people. Do I really know who, or what I'm talking to? What manner of humanity, with all it's liabilities, quirks and nuances are they which have eluded my notice?
Just when I was beginning to feel like I've settled my debts and left the past behind me. Just what are you?
Quote of e post:
Why do you do this to me
Why do you do this so easily
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These lives, these people. Do I really know who, or what I'm talking to? What manner of humanity, with all it's liabilities, quirks and nuances are they which have eluded my notice?
Just when I was beginning to feel like I've settled my debts and left the past behind me. Just what are you?
Quote of e post:
Why do you do this to me
Why do you do this so easily
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