One Ring
I got a little ring,
its nothing more then that
Tiny sliver of silver
around my hand it wraps
This piece of metal
betrays its weight, its mass
The fullness of responsibility within that ring it rests
Just one complete circle
More a seal then gate to me
Even if it is by choice
Only I can set me free
Its not the ring that holds me
surely not its marks
but treat it as a lesson
of what could have become
I have a little ring
I wear it on my finger
It is a sign to me
Just wait a little longer
I had a little ring
I wore it on my finger
Its echoes sing to me
A future that is no longer
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Its been a few long days. We'll probably never meet again as long as I live. I intend to keep my pledge, not the best I can but the way it ought to. Resign, Resign- those wandering eyes.
My God is an awesome God he reigns, from heaven above with wisdom, power and love. My God is an awesome God.
I have nothing left to say. All I can do is wait things out and and keep my head on. Merry Christmas everyone, I'll be looking forward to the new year.
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Alcohol is fluid misery
Monday, December 24, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Book Out 01
Les Miserables - On My Own
Now I'm all alone again,
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to.
Without a home, without a friend,
Without a face to say hello to.
And now the night is near,
Now I can make believe he's here.
Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping.
I think of him, and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping.
The city goes to bed,
And I can live inside my head.
On my own,
Pretending he's beside me.
All alone,
I walk with him till morning.
Without him,
I feel his arms around me,
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me.
In the rain,
The pavement shines like silver.
All the lights
Are misty in the river.
In the darkness,
The trees are full of starlight,
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever.
And I know
It's only in my mind,
That I'm talking to myself
And not to him.
And although I know that he is blind,
Still I say,
There's a way for us.
I love him,
But when the night is over,
He is gone,
The river's just a river.
Without him,
The world around me changes.
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers.
I love him,
But every day I'm learning,
All my life,
I've only been pretending!
Without me,
His world will go on turning,
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!
I love him...
I love him...
I love him...
But only on my own...
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Just change all the "him"s to "her". My first book out! I've been gone for 2 weeks and its been pretty cool! I'm not authorized and am not allowed to divulge anything to do with my training to anyone who isn't related to MINDEF or the SAF. So other then other NSF and the like I'm sorry but I can't share. BUT my dear Eliza will know everything- I love her dearly.
I'm just happy to be out here. Blog more some other time.
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And I know
It's only in my mind,
That I'm talking to myself
And not to her.
Now I'm all alone again,
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to.
Without a home, without a friend,
Without a face to say hello to.
And now the night is near,
Now I can make believe he's here.
Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping.
I think of him, and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping.
The city goes to bed,
And I can live inside my head.
On my own,
Pretending he's beside me.
All alone,
I walk with him till morning.
Without him,
I feel his arms around me,
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me.
In the rain,
The pavement shines like silver.
All the lights
Are misty in the river.
In the darkness,
The trees are full of starlight,
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever.
And I know
It's only in my mind,
That I'm talking to myself
And not to him.
And although I know that he is blind,
Still I say,
There's a way for us.
I love him,
But when the night is over,
He is gone,
The river's just a river.
Without him,
The world around me changes.
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers.
I love him,
But every day I'm learning,
All my life,
I've only been pretending!
Without me,
His world will go on turning,
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!
I love him...
I love him...
I love him...
But only on my own...
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Just change all the "him"s to "her". My first book out! I've been gone for 2 weeks and its been pretty cool! I'm not authorized and am not allowed to divulge anything to do with my training to anyone who isn't related to MINDEF or the SAF. So other then other NSF and the like I'm sorry but I can't share. BUT my dear Eliza will know everything- I love her dearly.
I'm just happy to be out here. Blog more some other time.
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And I know
It's only in my mind,
That I'm talking to myself
And not to her.
Monday, December 03, 2007
What does a sane man do in an insane society?
Its not everyday you come online and get a fresh revelation that your days are numbered. And that you haven't made a difference in the world. And that you haven't done much with the time you've had thus far- Even for those who make this time the best it can be.
"Lucky lucky you, to be young again"
"Out of time, out of luck"
It was 2am and I really didn't feel like explaining myself there and then. You're really a lucky guy you see. At least, you have time to wait things out, and she's still single, receptive and within reach. You're not spending the last 3 days of your free life fretting over whats going to come, and you have friends who support what you're doing. I'm out of time, out of luck and all out of guts.
I told you that love songs aren't good for self control. And that rules are rules and one has no choice but to wait. But I can't abide personally. And its different. Authentic legality is more burdensome then forbidden fruit, calls, lies and video tapes.- because everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial.
For these 2 days at least, I hope you will still have me. While you're burying your loneliness killing pixels, blasting songs and moping around, remember me, as I will remember you. We're all not as different as we make ourselves out to be.
The immersing nature of the media is just how Big Brother has evolved today. Its true, just like in the novel. Whips, chains and fire have been replaced by movies. magazines and music- laws and restrictions just aren't as persuasive as passive indoctrination. "Big Brother isn’t watching. He’s singing and dancing…With everyone’s imagination atrophied, no one will ever be a threat to the world." Your attempts at personal expression through buying, saying, listening and doing what you want is exactly the "free will" corporations and commercials want you to have. Emo teens listening to sad songs will write self effacing poems and pour billions into the coffers of pharmaceutical companies who manufacture ineffective antidepressants. Spunky and adventurous young men and women will sign up for package tours to remote locations and line the pockets of airline and travel agencies. Connoisseurs of fine dining will flood to small and overpriced celebrity restaurants upon recommendation to sample exotic fair and fuel a cycle of waste and excess.
Epicurus may have been about 2360 years early but his philosophy is precisely what people think is the way things ought to be run today, and how governments and companies are glad to market that ideal. Conspiracy theorists are having a field day simply because their theories are has heretical as the idea that the world is round. We clamor for the truth but the truth really isn't what we want to know. How real is the truth as we see it, depends on how profitable the figures pulling the strings of the world deem it to be. I'm not saying we're never alone. But what I am saying is that you should never, for a single moment, think that you're an individual with am undeniable right and freedom to expression, belief and practice.
You're lucky, because you have a mom and a dad and a sister and brothers who love you. Because you live a normal life in a slightly abnormal world. Because your mother isn't a crazy psychotic who thinks the entire world is out to ruin her plans, throwing away random things and conducting strip searches on you to prove you're really her son and not an imitation. Because your father isn't pouring his money into a get rich scheme involving health products and diet pills that is supposed to help the family after retirement. Because your sister isn't a well sheltered fool whose world revolves around herself and her selfish desires. Because you can love your sister and be assured you can trust her simply because she isn't like a spy for your mother. Because you don't have to live with the knowledge that after you get your exam results back you're not going to be able to go to university. Because the girl you love does not have friends who are trying their hardest to stop you from getting near to her. Because the girl you love is still single and does not talk to you about how wonderful her boyfriend is. Because you aren't struggling with the concept that you may not really be in love but just in love with the concept of being in love. Because even though your friends have left for a while they still miss you enough to care. Because- just because life hasn't seemed to turn its back on you.
Will you even read this and shed a single tear?
I don't dream of living a great life, I lie to dream great dreams.
You have no one to talk to? Well, neither do i.
The Click Five - All I need is you
You're scared
It shows
Been there
You're not prepared to be
In love
With me
So soon cause you've been through enough to have
Something hold you back
We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you
They say
Don't waste
Your time
They're obviously blind
So let's
Forget
The words the thoughts they put into your head
Don't give up just yet
We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you
We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is --
Baby, maybe we should start somewhere
Baby, let me in your heart
Before we fall apart
We don't need to go too far
Let's hold on to who we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you
We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is you
All I need is you
All I need is you
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We just don't see how God fits anywhere in this puzzle.
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We don't need to go too far
Let's hold on to where we are
"Lucky lucky you, to be young again"
"Out of time, out of luck"
It was 2am and I really didn't feel like explaining myself there and then. You're really a lucky guy you see. At least, you have time to wait things out, and she's still single, receptive and within reach. You're not spending the last 3 days of your free life fretting over whats going to come, and you have friends who support what you're doing. I'm out of time, out of luck and all out of guts.
I told you that love songs aren't good for self control. And that rules are rules and one has no choice but to wait. But I can't abide personally. And its different. Authentic legality is more burdensome then forbidden fruit, calls, lies and video tapes.- because everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial.
For these 2 days at least, I hope you will still have me. While you're burying your loneliness killing pixels, blasting songs and moping around, remember me, as I will remember you. We're all not as different as we make ourselves out to be.
The immersing nature of the media is just how Big Brother has evolved today. Its true, just like in the novel. Whips, chains and fire have been replaced by movies. magazines and music- laws and restrictions just aren't as persuasive as passive indoctrination. "Big Brother isn’t watching. He’s singing and dancing…With everyone’s imagination atrophied, no one will ever be a threat to the world." Your attempts at personal expression through buying, saying, listening and doing what you want is exactly the "free will" corporations and commercials want you to have. Emo teens listening to sad songs will write self effacing poems and pour billions into the coffers of pharmaceutical companies who manufacture ineffective antidepressants. Spunky and adventurous young men and women will sign up for package tours to remote locations and line the pockets of airline and travel agencies. Connoisseurs of fine dining will flood to small and overpriced celebrity restaurants upon recommendation to sample exotic fair and fuel a cycle of waste and excess.
Epicurus may have been about 2360 years early but his philosophy is precisely what people think is the way things ought to be run today, and how governments and companies are glad to market that ideal. Conspiracy theorists are having a field day simply because their theories are has heretical as the idea that the world is round. We clamor for the truth but the truth really isn't what we want to know. How real is the truth as we see it, depends on how profitable the figures pulling the strings of the world deem it to be. I'm not saying we're never alone. But what I am saying is that you should never, for a single moment, think that you're an individual with am undeniable right and freedom to expression, belief and practice.
You're lucky, because you have a mom and a dad and a sister and brothers who love you. Because you live a normal life in a slightly abnormal world. Because your mother isn't a crazy psychotic who thinks the entire world is out to ruin her plans, throwing away random things and conducting strip searches on you to prove you're really her son and not an imitation. Because your father isn't pouring his money into a get rich scheme involving health products and diet pills that is supposed to help the family after retirement. Because your sister isn't a well sheltered fool whose world revolves around herself and her selfish desires. Because you can love your sister and be assured you can trust her simply because she isn't like a spy for your mother. Because you don't have to live with the knowledge that after you get your exam results back you're not going to be able to go to university. Because the girl you love does not have friends who are trying their hardest to stop you from getting near to her. Because the girl you love is still single and does not talk to you about how wonderful her boyfriend is. Because you aren't struggling with the concept that you may not really be in love but just in love with the concept of being in love. Because even though your friends have left for a while they still miss you enough to care. Because- just because life hasn't seemed to turn its back on you.
Will you even read this and shed a single tear?
I don't dream of living a great life, I lie to dream great dreams.
You have no one to talk to? Well, neither do i.
The Click Five - All I need is you
You're scared
It shows
Been there
You're not prepared to be
In love
With me
So soon cause you've been through enough to have
Something hold you back
We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you
They say
Don't waste
Your time
They're obviously blind
So let's
Forget
The words the thoughts they put into your head
Don't give up just yet
We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you
We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is --
Baby, maybe we should start somewhere
Baby, let me in your heart
Before we fall apart
We don't need to go too far
Let's hold on to who we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you
We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is you
All I need is you
All I need is you
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We just don't see how God fits anywhere in this puzzle.
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We don't need to go too far
Let's hold on to where we are
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