Knock x Birthday x Sleep

Lenka - Knock Knock
A second, a minute, and hour, a day goes by.
I´m hopin' just to be by your side.
I´m turnin' the handle
it won’t open.
Don’t make me wait, cause right now I need your smile.

Chorus:
Knock Knock
When life had locked me out, I turned to you
so open the door.
Cuz' you’re all I need right now it´s true.
Nothin' works like you.

Little louder x3 knockin'
Little louder [x2]

A warm bath, a good laugh, an old song that you know by heart.
I’ve tried it but they all leave me cold.
So now I´m here waiting to see you,
my remedy for all that’s been hurting me.

[Chorus]

You seem to know the way
to turn my frown upside down
you always know what to say
to make me feel like everything’s ok.

Little louder x3 knockin’ [x3]
Little louder [x2]

[Chorus x2]

Little louder x3 knockin'
Nothin' works like you, oh oh
Little louder x3 knockin'
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Haha were you expecting a knock knock joke?

I'd like to thank everyone who wished me a happy birthday be it through sms, Facebook, msn or word of mouth :) This has truly been one of the most overwhelming responses I have received and to borrow a line- 真的感动人心 haha. To quote, Libra babies are like super sad cos their birthdays fall within test / exam / projectspam period. Everyone, I can feel the heartfelt well wishes (and some not so heartfelt wishes haha) but still the aggregate is massive. Feeling so loved right now scrolling down the page la- but life has to go on there are tutorials to complete and lessons to attend.

Haven't been sleeping at decent times recently D: There are a mix of reasons, from work, to diet (coffee), to gaming (BBS is addictive great)- I don't have the problem of me not being able to sleep. Instead I'd love to just collapse in a warm corner of the bed and slap on the ZZZs but I find ways to be occupied. In fact it is nearly 2am now ad I missed 1111 and 1234, yet again. I could really use a wish right now even though the birthday magic is over :(

You know, even after I have said so much- I really do miss them. The days we spent together are magically preserved forever, a standard of craziness to which other days of madness have to compete against. Yet I cant bring myself to take 3 steps back- again I ask: So why would I rather sit alone with my ears plugged into a monotone?

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

Wedding Dress x Issue tracking x iPhone?

Nothing new, but it is still magic.

NM2219, truly a module with a whole lot of work both project and test wise. Issue tracking is so annoying, I have no idea how I'm going to gather 40 articles for 3219 when it comes down to that. So lets sum up what I have on this week~

Monday morning's presentation was not bad, it was a fiasco- but Daniel said it's very good- I think he was trying to spare our feelings. NM1101E test was do-able, but I don't think I'll excel in it, just do decently. Now for the wall of things to do by Friday I have the standard Philosophy summary and all the articles for NM2219 issue tracking with their summaries. Alright so it does not sound like a lot- sure feels like it because I have what? One and a half days left- brilliant.

Have been behind in all readings ever since the presentation popped up. How thrilling >.>

Pol Science and sociology mid terms coming after the e-learning week- oh and its also my birthday that week. Hooray! Exams as a present, joy... On that topic, I'm not sure if I'm going to actually get an iphone. It is a heavy investment, one that I am in no position to pay off now- especially not after my spending spree this month (September) Only time can and will tell.

Gotta be Somebody - Nickelback
This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough

So I'll be waiting for the real thing
I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen

So I'll be holding my own breath right up 'til the end
Until that moment when I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And you know this feels too right
It's just like déjà vu
Me standing here with you

So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end?
Is it that moment when I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
You never know when it shows up
Make sure you're holding on
'Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, oh

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
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There's gotta be somebody for me out there. Even Sheldon has one. heh. Bazinga.

It's a quarter after one

Sparks fly
It's like electricity
I might die
When I forget how to breathe
You get closer and there's
No where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me
Is frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things
I've never seen

'Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

Past loves
They never got very far
Wall's up, made sure
I guarded my heart
And I promise I wouldn't do this till
I knew it was right for me

But no one (no one)
No guy that I met before
Could make me (make me)
Feel so right and secure
And have you noticed
I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears

'Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

I've never felt nothing like this
You're making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
It kinda feels like it's love

Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

Haha I just posted this a few posts ago- initially came on to post something else but seeing the link made me all nostalgic again <3 haha this song is so attractive.




Lady Antebellum - Need You Now
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now
I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

Introduced, another amazing song- I'm pretty surprised this isn't a hit or something- far better then airplanes or owning the dance floor bla bla bla- GUSH so nice haha.

Quote

But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane.

- John Green, Looking for Alaska

Angel Flavor's Present

The 30 day tumblr challenge has failed miserably. Nevertheless with my internet being down and all I doubt I would be bothered to carry on with it even if I wanted to- wait that was contradictory wasn't it? Ignore that.

I was reading one of my few but terribly complicated and convoluted readings and it chanced upon me to find out what exactly the University education is meant to impart unto us students. Surely 4 years isn't just to teach us how to craft reasonably waterproof arguments, navigate our way around campus, listen to drawling lectures, rush reports while sleep deprived (alright I admit that may be a useful thing to learn in itself) or even to acquire knowledge and skill in a specific specialty. One term often pops up which calls itself "critical thinking".

What is Critical Thinking? Go google it, or wiki it- which is where by the way I came across this one groundbreaking idea (to me at least).

Quote:

[The second requires ie. Intellectual Humility] extensive experience in identifying the extent of one's own ignorance in a wide variety of subjects (ignorance whose admission leads one to say, "I thought I knew, but I merely believed").

I thought I knew, but I merely believed.

Wow. Suspending judgment and making sure you keep perspective and not slip into judging based on what you believe or are entrenched in but instead really knowing and being objective. The realization that you need to know more about your "opponent" to break out of the trap of what (little) you already know. I shall work hard at developing this aspect of critical thinking, not just judging but knowing, really knowing.

Which brings me to the moral relativity of society but that jumps into philosophy and sociology. Good and evil, if the lowest level of evil is to willfully do evil for the sake of evil then what of indifference? Indifference through the acceptance of everything by justifying even that which is unjustifiable by relativism- in which each has its own reasons, motivations and merits(?). Why bring this up? To defeat indifference the weapon is critical thinking- not just believing like the masses or even thinking you stand on one side or the other without being clearly objective. Some things are not objective, and some blacks are black no matter how gray they sound.

Education has taken an dark turn, it is now a weapon placed in the hands of the young who are to fight for the future of tomorrow. Perhaps I've been reading a little too many fantasy novels of kings, knights and magic but I find this metaphor naturally fitting. These are dark times we live in and a sharp blade of clarity is what we need to cleave through the obscuring veil of relativity.